Your LOVE for me made me STRONGER. ^^

I was about to sleep then this guy catches my attention. I can't help not to help him. And out of the blue i find myself having conversations with him. Praise God, it goes well. He shares, i listened. I say something, he appreciates. Really everything has a purpose. I find myself to trust Him more and more in every ways, in every prayers that i've been praying of. Yes sometimes i do doubt to,like this guy who doubt often. But realizing all what we have shared made me say i must quit doubting whenever i pray. TRUST him fully. :)

Another thing. This past few days i really get tired at work, so much stress it brings that i find myself sleeping every night when i'm about to go home. I can't myself to stop not to sleep, Praise God i can always be home safe and sound. Work brings stress in my life yet it made me more grow stronger and nearer to Daddy God. Prayer Life increases. And find myself reading my bible every wee hours of the night. Thank you Lord. :)

And lastly i'll end it up from my revelation this night. -- WAITING.

Waiting. Oh yeah waiting! It's a sign of trust to Daddy God, not knowing what you've been praying of will come to reality. Never knowing if it will occur or not. But then waiting is just a sign of having your full trust in Him. Removing doubts in your life, never knowing what's gonna happen next but then you're waiting. Waiting til the day Dad answers your unanswered prayers. Funny how it seems but guess what i'm waiting. I can wait forever Lord, if you say so. Let your will be done. Thank you Lord for that enduring Love. :)

“For yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever! Amen. Goodnight Dad. :)"

TRUST

hai. what an issue. ita nnman Dad. yah i know they were just protecting. i know they really care, i can feel it. but hey, can't they just stop for a while and let me be. i'm not doing this for myself alone, i do love them but Dad you know all these years ila ng pakiramdaman ku lagi. all these years manibat-ibat ing takut ku atsu karela ekuna pin agawa ing buri ku king bie dahil king takut ayta eh. masosora ku talaga. is not that i wanted to disobey them, magpaalam nakuman. sasabyan dang matapang kung paybengi, wa matapang ku for the fact na balu kung emuku pabruen Dad apin mu nman ta panghawakan ku lagi eh. ikamu Dad, dahil balu ku no one can harm me whenever i'm with You-that's the only thing i can hold into. dakal namo krimen malyari, oneng alwa naman ta reason para mgstop ing egana-gana. whenever they speak that thing to me, "EMU KASI BALU ING PIGAGANAKAN!" (with a hard voice.) it makes my tears fall so fast and non-stop beat of my heart. but then i'll just silently listened to their sermons. solid Dad, kung ali ku balu ing sasabyan da and kung ali kula pamintuan dati kupa linaban karela, eku sana medagul makanini. nuko kung balu da mu panamdaman ku. kasakit ing alang sasabyanan. never did they know what's on my mind and heart kasi busy la lagi. kaya pin siguru maiinggit ku kareng alwa na kclose dala deng pengari da dahil asasabi da ngan, yah there were some parts of my life na asasabi ku karela but not all. not all Dad. kasakit ne Dad. madalas pin isipan ku pag aku megkapamilya i want that time with my kids talaga na balu ku ing egana-gana karela. eku buring makanini na balamu atin takut, atin gap. i know i'm not doing the things the way i wanted it to be, i'm always asking for your concern if it's the right thing to do. i'm old enough to know what's right from wrong. it feels like i'm a rebel child with this blog entry but it's really what i feel at this moment.

**Dad, i'm praying for a breakthrough in my life. The time that they would trust me with my decisions, decisions not the way i wanted things to happen, but the decisions with your full consent - my purpose in life. I love them Dad, please do speak to them and trust you that everything will be fine, everything is under your control and not mine neither them or other people, that no one can harm me, that i'm safe besides you. Reminds me of what you're always saying to me Dad -- "WHEN I'M AFRAID, I TRUST IN YOU."

BREAKTHROUGH.BREAKTHROUGH.BREAKTHROUGH.

***And all my days are all for you Lord, ika ng bahala. From now on let it be your way, not mine.

“Lord, every morning you hear my voice. Every morning, I tell you what I need, and I wait for your answer.” Psalm 5:3

***BUT THE LORD IS FAITHFUL, HE WILL STRENGTHEN AND PROTECT YOU FROM EVIL ONE." -2THESSALONIANS 3:3***

:)

out of this tears Dad you still find a reason to put smile on my face, thanks for the Anointing of this guy Dad. Tell him that i do appreciate him so much and many things have change since i met him. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uxvoTAgw-so&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

Bless him more Dad. Hug him for me. Love you Daddy. :)

kasakit =l

grabii Lord kapilan mipalapit naku keng obra ku pati kareng tau ling obra mi ka rin pa kailangan manglakwan. ali ku asahan na kauli ku apin na talaga ing seryus a pakisabi na kakung tatay ku. solid pipigilan ku luwa ku harapan na neng kalako na tinulu na pin man. makananu ku sabyan keng obra? whoa. it takes guts and courage for me to say the words "RESIGN." amiss kula kwork ku Dad hay for sure mangaga ku lalu na ing papakit dang care kanaku, lalu na manager ku kahit masungit ya paminsan. deng supervisor ku Dad. lalu na deng kayabe ku T.A. - ate tet, ate choi, kuya louie -ups & down ku keng work Dad ila abe ku. deng forex Dad lalu na i ate lyn na mamaus baby kaku. hay kasakit, i found comfort to her Dad lalu na ala kung kapatad babai. hay Dad, deng ngan forex Dad amiss kula. biglaan. kasakit pala Dad. eku expect. pero ta obedience Dad, i know pigaganakan daku. sopan muku ne Dad. for sure tears will fall pag sinabi ko na yun. bday gift ku na din kang tatay ku Dad. epa tuknang lua tutulu ngeni. phug naman Dad. =(

sabi mu pin kaku "RELINQUISH"
ok Dad i will listen. give me this remaining days of January.

bless muku din ne Dad, guide mu ku lagi pag pauwi, i know sisikanan ku mu lub ku everytime mumuli ku king work but deep inside tatakut ku din pu. guide muku Dad emuku papabruen. lako mu din pu ing worry kareng pengari ku. hay Dad. you break me this night.

I'm praying for a job breakthrough Dad, i know you will kasi pkiramdaman dnka ngeni kalwat din megmasyas ko ne Dad. Sorry Dad. This time i will give up - relinquish.

Give me that strength to say those words oh God. Let your will be done.

***Hug me tight Dad, never let me go. =(

Tough Day @ Work

whew! whatta day. full of pressure. full of stress but with God's grace. whoa! this day was so great! :)

i enjoyed working though there's a lot of struggles.

decision making.

new learnings.

plus the non-stop smile you must do all the times whenever you see people at work.

the way you mingle with lots of employee.

answering non-stop phone calls and oops remember to greet them!

"Treasury, Goodmorning. Treasury, Goodafternoon, Treasury, Goodevening.":)

(but honestly i hate answering phone calls at work. haha)

everything. everything was too hard at work.

but thinking the day will pass by made everything possible. :)

i'm learning. i'm growing. thanks for the inspiration. ^^

Dad, guide me all the days of my life. It's not all about the wealth but indeed when you say Stop, i will. i will do that, i'm waiting for you Dad. Bless me with a new work if you wanted me to resign sooner.Thanks Dad. Love you! :)

I Miss You :)

hey i'm missing this guy i used to be with.

what i really miss about him?

hmm. the way he says don't do that. do this.

i miss the way he caressed me.

the way he says i miss you.

i miss everything about him, coz he's real. :)

not to make it too long.

i pray someday he'll miss me again.

the way he said it on the first time around.

Dad, thank you for his life. He's one of the reason you've given for me to make me feel i'm loved by You. Hug him Dad :)

middle of nowhere

is it really the work that i wanted? =l

it's like i'm caught in the middle of nowhere finding answer to my questions until when will be settling for this company?
yes indeed i do enjoy at times it's because of the family atmosphere at work but many times i get pressured and stress out in this kind of work. plus the mall hours we used to deal with. going home late. encountering passengers with opposite sex and being the only female passenger, just praying i'll be home safe and sound. walking late at night all alone, without knowing what's gonna happen next. prayerlife increases in every situation i'm encountering nowadays.

experiencing shortages at work especially those cashiers, i do pity them. i can feel their pain, coz i encountered it too. i pity the girl who cried, the reason why we got home so late. she had shortages plus the fact that she must pay for it.

feels like my mind gonna explode can't continue what i really wanna say. so many things keep running through my head. i wanna cry them out. honestly. it's been night since i've been crying to Daddy God. praying and longing for directions, for my unanswered prayers. =(

**DAD.......... hug me. =(

WHAT'S ON MY MIND??

Let's start at work. At work, great! I'm learning every ropes in corporate environment though at times i get too tired. Thankfully i found myself more on prayers that's the best thing i can do to overcome the word "RESIGN" -- pray.pray.pray. Just waiting for the right to file my resignation, i don't know when but sooner or later i will. And i'm blessed with my workmates since i'm the youngest among they always guide me through. So blessed even my manager, she always buy us some foods at the office. Take note foods are not allowed at office. Haha. Luckily our manager love us. :)

Second -- LG. Yeah! We had our lifegroup a while ago and i honestly say i didn't understand all of the sharing that our LG told us. Why? Maybe i'm too tired to absorb everything. So blessed i'm too tired, why? Coz i find myself not reacting at all when he shares stories about the "chumachani" sa kanya. Should i be affected? Maybe yes because there's a feeling. Maybe not coz i'm learning the process of letting Go and letting Daddy God work out on it. God only knows on what's gonna happen next. So be it. Let His will be done. (1JOHN4:18):)

Insecurity & Jealousy -- i do have! Why? I envy those people at church who can serve anytime while on my part. Whoa! But then again Dad told me that with my own special way of sharing Him in my own LG can make Him smile so much. In my own little way i can serve our King, and stop myself comparing it unto others. Yeah right. I will do my very best to serve Him in my own special way. Thanks Dad for removing all those insecurities and jealousy within me.

Back to School? Yes i do have plans. But when? I'll try this sem. Praying for it. Dad make it happen that i would pass the Civil Exam.(Professional) so i can easily resign at work and find another work again where i can get enough salary so i can go back to school again. I TRUST IN YOU! :)

Next work? I'm praying for DTI. Why? Because Darby works there. I do miss when he prays for me and reminding me spiritually, encouraging me when i'm down. His one of my spiritual buddy too besides from our LG leader. I admit i'm so blessed having the chance to meet my LG leader. Thanks for his life Dad, mind him I appreciate him so much. :)

My LG -- COMMITMENT AND FAITH. Praying for their spiritual growth, really having a hard time to be guide them. I'm praying that somehow they can feel how much i'm into it -- to my commitments on helping them grow as a Christian. It might be hard but i know we can get it through. Ecclesiastes love me! TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE.

Family - so blessed to have them. Thanks Dad, cast away all their worries especially when it's too late in the night and i'm not yet home due to work. Give them peace of mind Dad, i really appreciate them. :)

Friends - too many to count on. I'm praying for the time that i could meet some of my friends who find time for me yet on my part i find it hard to deal with them due to working schedules. Praying for it.

That's it for now. Too long my blog. Haha. Thanks for listening. Praying you can talk. Haha. Just kidding. Signing off. So blessed for this day. Why? Because i have HIM in my life, thanks Dad! :)

***Dad, thank you for this joy breaking day though at times i get so physically weak. May you lift up my Spirit, strengthen me in every ways. Guide me with my decisions and everyday when i'm about to go to work and at home in wee hours of the night. Bless my heart. Let your will be done on what's gonna happen next on my life, my journey. May i be in fullness in Christ and be committed to you so that grace would flow in my life group. Breakthrough Dad in many ways. Love you Daddy. Goodnight. :))

COMMITMENTS :)

Hey Heart! It's my first blog this year 2011. I am blessed and praying every reader would be bless in this blog. Anyways it's my heart talking :)

Oh yeah! COMMITMENTS? hmm. This year? More Spiritual growth and time investment for my Life Group. I may not know how can i deal with it because i find it hard due to my working schedule. But i know and i bet i can really had our LG if i would have my time investment for them. Perhaps this would be my word for tomorrow. COMMITMENTS. yeah! God was so great, merely writing in this blog inspire me to do things in a better way. :)

So let's keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision—you'll see it yet! Now that we're on the right track, let's stay on it. Philippians 3:15-16 (MSG)

"Every choice you make has eternal consequences, so you had better choose wisely."

Spiritual growth is not automatic. It takes an intentional commitment. Imagine what your life will be like at the end, if you make a full and complete commitment to him now.

**Dad, guide me. hold me so dearly. :)

:))