FEAR

i'm not blogging for past few weeks..
i dunno why, i hate to stop blogging..
it's just like i can't update it for no reasons. .
and now i;m blogging..(weird)

i'm awakened with that voice - my father's voice.
i heard his voice then, whoa. it scares me.
i dunno why? maybe there's fears with me.
it scares me most.
i hate this feeling. - rebuke. =/

it feels like i do no longer know myself.
i wanted to be alone.
i wanna go somewhere where nobody knows me.
i wanna. ihh.. why i'm feeling this way?
i hate this way.
i wanna breakdown and cry for no reasons.

i just wanted to be me - myself.
do what i want.
love what i want.
be who i am - the real me.
the new me.

i wanted to have my job too.
and honestly i want a job far from my family.
it's not that i do no longer wanted to be with them.
but i just wanna find myself on my own.

(err!! i hate this feeling..diff. stuffs are running on my mind right now, it's like i'm gonna explode.)

***BROKEN AGAIN***
***Lord,don't let me down - keep me safe&warm.***
***IWANTYOU-INEEDYOU-ILOVEYOU***

GOD'S GRACE -- J.M.L.

I've met this guy accidentally, not knowing he would be one of my greatest blessing in life. Yes, indeed! Every now and then i feel so blessed whenever i'm with him. It's like a magnetic force - force of endless blessings. That's why i'm calling him now GG starting yesterday (06-09-10).. And I admit i do value this person so much. His a blessing in disguise. Everything happens for a reason, he's not an accident.:)

SET ASIDE -- whoa! the last thing we talked about. He's right. But when he start saying those words, i felt pain or should i saw i'm hurting please don't say that thing. But reality check, it's the best and right thing to do. What i feel then is that -- "alwa pala pag ing mismung taung luluguran mu ing sinabi ng oh istuna tuknang na" kinda like that feeling. What i mean is that, why i'm being so speechless? haha.. anyways. This would be the last blog that i would talked about my feelings for him. And i won't say that i'm waiting. He deserves someone better than me. I'll just pray for my heart. :)

Yes i do surrender what i felt for him before, a memoir to live through. Just leave it behind Carizza. You can do it. Boldness. God is with you. Brand new start, just be on FIRE and FOCUS more to God starting today and the rest of your lives. OK? Yeah! that's my girl! Cheer up. Never frown. Remember God is so good, and He'll shower you with His unfailing LOVE. Go for your G12! Just be obedient in His words, let your love flow to your neighbors -- let them feel God's love by means of you. That's right, never worry ok? Remember your word - Phil.4:6. Yes! That's good now i see you smiling with your heart glowing and growing in God's love. :)


***la.la.LOVE.JC!***
***FOR CHRIST'S SAKE***
***To GOD be ALL the GLORY.***

Ephesians 3:17-19

"So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."

WALK WITH FAITH IN YOUR HEART :)

FULNESS OF LOVE WITH JESUS CHRIST! ^_^


***BLESSING -- A STRONG AND ENDURING HEART -- I RECEIVED!***
***06-07-10 -- NAMED HEART♥ÜÜÜ♥***

PRAYERS :)

1 Thessalonians 5:11

"Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing."


***PRAY WITHOUT CEASING***
***Luke 11, 18***

MENG! :)

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over."

--words from Meng. A Christian guy. My P.E. partner wayback in 2nd year college.. Haha.. I remember he's always asking love advices. Haha.. But what was funny about this guy was when our Final Presentation in P.E., nabunot namin JIVE..whoa! Yeah, jazz.. don't you know that i did those steps.. haha.. Amazing! :) And I choreograph the whole presentation, makapikun paminsan.. haha.. 'coz my mates then in P.E. were all irregulars plus those engineering guys. whoa! eka mate? haha..And the most funniest thing that I would remember with this guy was when were about to dance our number but a moment before that, He asked me to dance it again. The whole routine with mixed karug na n mangalgal gamat, manimawas. Haha.. siyempre ken kaming harap kanu, eya bisa magkamali. Haha.. And Praise God it was a job well done. :)

MENG tawagan lang.. haha.. but He's real name was John Emerson Nuqui. A children of the Lord. though I had communication with him via online only, I feel blessed every now and then I had a talked with Him. He share with me the Word of God as always, and there comes a point that i was so nalilito with my decision and He said just pray for it. And gave me words of encouragement from the Lord. Ihh.. solid mkbless ka meng! And now look at me, I accept it and continuously Growing in Love with the Lord. Thanks for the advices Meng!:) (Though you can't read my blog,haha..)

***I MISS DANCING WITH MY PARTNER MENG***

I'M YOURS :)

WORD FOR TODAY:

1 Chronicles 29:11

"Yours, O LORD, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the majesty and the splendor, for everything in heaven and earth is yours. Yours, O LORD, is the kingdom; you are exalted as head over all."


--So take me as I am, Oh Lord. I AM YOURS. :)

IN LINE WITH MY HEART

Everything changes.

Always listen to your own heart.

It's not my destiny, it's yours.

Let me go.

I wish we could have been together.

I knew in my heart it was wrong.

Destiny.

Yes, Exactly.

We make our own destiny.

Look forward.

***POP -- D&M***
***In line with my Heart***