iheartmyself--TheJourney: June 2010

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

BLEST -- so dear to me :)

06-30-10
whoa! finally after a long long time ago.. haha.. :))
i had a time to spent with one of my closest friend - Miss Rachel Pregunta..
She was so dear to me and ii know i can count on her always..
i'm so blessed having someone like her in my life.. :)

As usual she's late, haha.. punctual pala ha.. :))
We ordered at Mcdo -- pineapple juice, cheeseburger (without pickles..haha), and large fries.. then we watched movie - eclipse, and we got a ticket for 200 php.. we wonder what's the difference between digital cinema.. haha..then had a walked, talked, barhopping and lead us to sbarro.. haha.. :)

Our photos together, enjoy! :)

together with blest enjoying the pizza :)

chicago white dish, new york pizza, raspberry iced tea (i'm not sure..haha)

Miss Rachel Pregunta :)

Miss Carizza Ramirez

We exchange notes @ Sbarro using our cinema tickets :)

Notes that i bought @ Papemelroti before on our way home and i was moved with the quotations written on it.. :)

--That's it.. I enjoyed really our bonded moments and I'm looking forward on the plans that we've been thinking.. haha ^_^

***LIVE.LOVE.LAUGH***
***Treasure every person in your life - they have different impact in you that surely you'll love. -- UNIQUENESS***

FAIRY DREAM :)

06-29-10
dream..dream.. dreamin! :)

oh yeah most of the time i do dreamed..
and this dreamed of mine this time was a little bit weirdo.. haha :)

i call it a fairy dream..
i'm wondering was it because of the Kingdom of Prince Max that's why i dreamed this one? haha.. perhaps? :)

anyways may dream goes like this..
i was with these two persons a boy and a girl. .
they invited me to go to a place of miracles, where all you can see was so pleasing to the eyes different kingdoms of Prince & Princess.. but i wonder why we don't stop in travelling, everytime we see new Kingdom we aim for more Kingdoms that we can't see until where our Journey would lead us.. And it come to the point that i give up, give up in the journey.. i remembered i told them that i'm too tired and scared on what would lies ahead..and boom! i woke up.. haha :))

whatta a dream..maybe i'm looking for something that i wanna be with but i then give up because of the obstacles i'm facing through.. but hopefully in reality i won't do that thing.. :)

i know i'm more stronger now having Our King besides me.. ^_^

***GOD LOVES US SO -- He won't leave us behind..***
***FAITH -- Never Give Up!***

Monday, June 28, 2010

GATORADE -- Energy Drink! :)

06-28-10
Oh it's monday and i don't feel well..

--physically,emotionally&spiritually.. sigh!=/

CONVERSATION BETWEEN ME & MY FATHER:
C: Tay, text me ih mama sabyan mu sali nakung gatorade.
T: Bakit menanu ka wari?
C: Masakit ku daramdaman eh.
T: Panulu ya wari ing gatorade?
C: Ali ya pero bisa kung gatorade. :)
End of conversation..

It was then that I realized that everytime i'm feeling something unusual or pain i drink gatorade most of the time.. ^_^
It's because whenever I drink that energy drink it makes me feel well and for the reason that i hate the taste of medicine..haha! :p

That night also i had a dinner with the whole family except with my older brother.
Our ulam? crab&corn soup plus ningnang bangus.. haha..
I started joking my father then we he said to my youngest brother "panagan ye i kuya yu keng soup." Whoa! He remembered my kuya, haha.. (siguro nde ako sanay na madinig sa kanya yun..) But anyways i know how my parents really care for us. It shows though they won't show it. I really appreciate their love and care for us. So blessed to have them. :)

After eating as usual I will do my younger brother assignment, wash the dishes and iron their uniforms for their school tomorrow..I wonder what would happen if i'm not at home???

Anyways i would just share to you this line that kept repeating on my mind, i'd heard it in the show MAgkaribal and it goes like this:
"Pumikit ka lang para hindi na masakit."
Yeah! It's true, but somehow you can't escape in the reality once you had opened your eyes again. It really hurts. haha (sounds like i'm broken.. haha. .)

That's it.. That's my day..haha..I honestly had fun blogging nowadays, one of my therapy - escape. ^_^

***BELIEVE -- MIRACLE***
***CLOSE YOUR EYES & PRAY - TALKED TO HIM SURELY HE WILL GIVE YOUR HEART'S DESIRES NO MATTER HOW LONG IT WILL TAKES***

MOVE FORWARD - FORWARD IN CHRIST

06-27-10
My Sunday? oh.. it was all about sleeping.. haha..

As usual we woke up early and go to mass.. but guess what everytime i went to mass i don't listened.. haha.. i don't know why? what i've been doing during the mass is that i'm just praying and i don't even listened on what the priest been saying, i sang songs with the choir too but i really never listened, maybe i'll listened for a while then in a while i can see myself talking to Daddy God..it's just that i wanted to talked only to Daddy God -- it was about me and our King only.. between the two of us..

After the mass, we went home and my family were preparing, gotta go for swimming with my Parent's friends but i didn't go with them.. why? because i just don't want.. i want to sleep.sleep.sleep. .they left me at home and i sleep more and more.. haha.. but my intention then is that i wanted to settle my mind.. yes my mind! =/

a lot of stuffs bothers me -- there were this small voices that i'm hearing.. whoa! =/ yet i'm thankful that Our King never let me down.. He prove once again that He is a mighty King, Our Savior.. :)

I was happy then that i had more Quiet Time with Our King, embracing His presence made me feel more loved by Him.. ^_^

***KINIKILIG***
***To God be all the Glory!***

ACCEPTANCE

06-26-10
it was saturday again, how i'd wish i can go on gig again.. every saturday i'm wishing that i could be there singing songs of praise and worship for our King but then.. =/

anyways my saturday?
i found it tiring as unusual, doing household chores - laundry day.. sigh! =/
but i'm into it.. i never complained about it though i do it all alone, i'm used to it. .

at afternoon we went to our lola's house - visit as often..
i loved being there, loneliness free..
i'm fun being with li'l child, babies.. :)

a picture of mine and my cousin's new born baby..

and the following pictures? i'd taken these one in a "baratilyo" or most of the people they called it "tiangge"
it was only that time time that i learned to appreciate this place.. maybe i'm not used in going to that place because of the crowd.. (i do hate it somehow..haha)
but now, i do appreciate it.. i'm learning.. :)

**fries and corns that they sell taste better.. :)

**stuffs that can be used at home..

**like in totobits.. haha

**cheap items that can be seen there..

**baby clothes that were for sale for 25-25 php only..

and after that tiangge stuff i had bonding with my cousin's friends..
i had a lot of fun with them, though they make "PILIT" for me to make me narrate what happened about my past.. past - my 1st ex bf.. maybe because one of them was broken.. haha.. heart broken, i just laugh at them and didn't tell the story.. why should i? haha.. it's about the past, so let it go.. :)

***ACCEPT -- MOVE ON***

Friday, June 25, 2010

Letter - 1st time - happy day =)

Honestly it was my first time to write a letter using every letter of a person's name. Guess what, i have no idea at all what should i write, but then with just a glimpse i had write this one.. haha.. Amazing.. FOCUS - you should know it by heart and mind.. - karate kid.. haha.. ^_^

whatta a great day, though i had 3 hours of sleep only still our good Lord made my day wonderful.. Porac - Angeles - Dau - Angeles - Sn Fdo. - Angeles - Porac. whoa! haha.. (mete ku pamasahe.. haha..) but it's all worth it..
After that i had an Lg with Israel and celebrated a post dated Father's day with our LG leader.. so blessed.. busog nnman with Daddy God's word.. :)

--A picture of the letter i made.. ^_^

***FOCUS***
***LOVE***
***AMAZING GRACE***
***ISRAEL-144***

Thursday, June 24, 2010

FEAR

i'm not blogging for past few weeks..
i dunno why, i hate to stop blogging..
it's just like i can't update it for no reasons. .
and now i;m blogging..(weird)

i'm awakened with that voice - my father's voice.
i heard his voice then, whoa. it scares me.
i dunno why? maybe there's fears with me.
it scares me most.
i hate this feeling. - rebuke. =/

it feels like i do no longer know myself.
i wanted to be alone.
i wanna go somewhere where nobody knows me.
i wanna. ihh.. why i'm feeling this way?
i hate this way.
i wanna breakdown and cry for no reasons.

i just wanted to be me - myself.
do what i want.
love what i want.
be who i am - the real me.
the new me.

i wanted to have my job too.
and honestly i want a job far from my family.
it's not that i do no longer wanted to be with them.
but i just wanna find myself on my own.

(err!! i hate this feeling..diff. stuffs are running on my mind right now, it's like i'm gonna explode.)

***BROKEN AGAIN***
***Lord,don't let me down - keep me safe&warm.***
***IWANTYOU-INEEDYOU-ILOVEYOU***

Thursday, June 10, 2010

GOD'S GRACE -- J.M.L.

I've met this guy accidentally, not knowing he would be one of my greatest blessing in life. Yes, indeed! Every now and then i feel so blessed whenever i'm with him. It's like a magnetic force - force of endless blessings. That's why i'm calling him now GG starting yesterday (06-09-10).. And I admit i do value this person so much. His a blessing in disguise. Everything happens for a reason, he's not an accident.:)

SET ASIDE -- whoa! the last thing we talked about. He's right. But when he start saying those words, i felt pain or should i saw i'm hurting please don't say that thing. But reality check, it's the best and right thing to do. What i feel then is that -- "alwa pala pag ing mismung taung luluguran mu ing sinabi ng oh istuna tuknang na" kinda like that feeling. What i mean is that, why i'm being so speechless? haha.. anyways. This would be the last blog that i would talked about my feelings for him. And i won't say that i'm waiting. He deserves someone better than me. I'll just pray for my heart. :)

Yes i do surrender what i felt for him before, a memoir to live through. Just leave it behind Carizza. You can do it. Boldness. God is with you. Brand new start, just be on FIRE and FOCUS more to God starting today and the rest of your lives. OK? Yeah! that's my girl! Cheer up. Never frown. Remember God is so good, and He'll shower you with His unfailing LOVE. Go for your G12! Just be obedient in His words, let your love flow to your neighbors -- let them feel God's love by means of you. That's right, never worry ok? Remember your word - Phil.4:6. Yes! That's good now i see you smiling with your heart glowing and growing in God's love. :)

***la.la.LOVE.JC!***
***FOR CHRIST'S SAKE***
***To GOD be ALL the GLORY.***

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Ephesians 3:17-19

"So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."

WALK WITH FAITH IN YOUR HEART :)

FULNESS OF LOVE WITH JESUS CHRIST! ^_^

***BLESSING -- A STRONG AND ENDURING HEART -- I RECEIVED!***
***06-07-10 -- NAMED HEART♥ÜÜÜ♥***

PRAYERS :)

1 Thessalonians 5:11

"Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing."

***PRAY WITHOUT CEASING***
***Luke 11, 18***

Friday, June 4, 2010

MENG! :)

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over."

--words from Meng. A Christian guy. My P.E. partner wayback in 2nd year college.. Haha.. I remember he's always asking love advices. Haha.. But what was funny about this guy was when our Final Presentation in P.E., nabunot namin JIVE..whoa! Yeah, jazz.. don't you know that i did those steps.. haha.. Amazing! :) And I choreograph the whole presentation, makapikun paminsan.. haha.. 'coz my mates then in P.E. were all irregulars plus those engineering guys. whoa! eka mate? haha..And the most funniest thing that I would remember with this guy was when were about to dance our number but a moment before that, He asked me to dance it again. The whole routine with mixed karug na n mangalgal gamat, manimawas. Haha.. siyempre ken kaming harap kanu, eya bisa magkamali. Haha.. And Praise God it was a job well done. :)

MENG tawagan lang.. haha.. but He's real name was John Emerson Nuqui. A children of the Lord. though I had communication with him via online only, I feel blessed every now and then I had a talked with Him. He share with me the Word of God as always, and there comes a point that i was so nalilito with my decision and He said just pray for it. And gave me words of encouragement from the Lord. Ihh.. solid mkbless ka meng! And now look at me, I accept it and continuously Growing in Love with the Lord. Thanks for the advices Meng!:) (Though you can't read my blog,haha..)

***I MISS DANCING WITH MY PARTNER MENG***

I'M YOURS :)

WORD FOR TODAY:

1 Chronicles 29:11

"Yours, O LORD, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the majesty and the splendor, for everything in heaven and earth is yours. Yours, O LORD, is the kingdom; you are exalted as head over all."

--So take me as I am, Oh Lord. I AM YOURS. :)

IN LINE WITH MY HEART

Everything changes.

Always listen to your own heart.

It's not my destiny, it's yours.

Let me go.

I wish we could have been together.

I knew in my heart it was wrong.

Destiny.

Yes, Exactly.

We make our own destiny.

Look forward.

***POP -- D&M***
***In line with my Heart***

HOUSEHOLD :)

sabihin mo sa katabi mo mag-household ka na.. =)

prayer meeting at the house.. richness..

FEED FOR CHRIST -- bakit feed for christ kaya?haha..

bakit pag Feed For Christ puro mayaman?
e kami nde nman mayaman.. haha..
madami lang nagmamahal..
mayaman sa kaibigan.. :)

oitah.. mipaisip kumu..haha :))
i never dealed with them nman..haha..
madakal ku madine..kaya most of the time umaalis ako ng bahay pag may prayer meeting..pero mktouch pag pupuryan daka..haha..mako naku pin..haha :))

ihh..solid..tas ang galing lahat nila magkanta..haha :))
may second voice effect pa..
makyabe ku ata eh.. ahaha.. :))

makainlove la boses..

***"YES LORD, YOU'RE MY SURE FOUNDATION."***
***GROWING MORE AND MORE INLOVE WITH THE LORD***

oh apektado nka nnman?haha. .
poor me.. ai mali pala..haha :))
rich me..haha :))

ot ng. .
ihh soLid..
sana pala neh..
ng kayang malyari pag harapan ng 3?haha..
excited ku pero balamu ali masanting..
aku nnman manasakit..
haha.. what's new? :)

pero kung diba alq harapan alq abalu if apektado ku tlga..haha :))
oita balamu murit naku nnman..
cgru kung makapagsalita ya blogs ku sapukan na naku..LOL :))

Proverbs 15:1
"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."
***PANINDIGAN MO YAN HA.SEE I LEARNED.***
***STRONGER THAN YESTERDAY***

Thursday, June 3, 2010

sabe-sabe :)

solid.

alang obra.
mete ya asu mi.
mendilu kung bongga keng uran.
mabayat ku katawan.
masanat ku pa dahil mebasa.
alang tudtud.

rugo.

pero maligaya ku pa rin.
sigurado enaman mituloy ing lagnat ayni. haha
kapilan ku pa wari melagnat.
enaku pin buri ning sakit. Amen! :)
makanyan talaga ing bie.
dalan tanamu keng kayli.
mas masanting ing bukas at datang pa ing dakal grasya.

yiih! =D

***itmile***

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

=(

ihh.. solid.. makalungkot naman kagising mu damdaman mu makanta.. rugo.. kahit alakung pakialam kanita.. ihh.. solid ot mete yapa kasi.. ot ihh.. hai =(

ONE MORE DAY - FAITH! :)

i know Lord God if it's for me then it will be..

Let your will be done..

one more day Oh God..

I entrust everything unto you :)

I ASKED. I BELIEVE. I RECEIVED! Ü

***FAITH***
***PHIL.4:6***

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

EXCITEMENT ONLINE :)

Out of boredom at home i discovered something in FB.. Daily Bible Scripture which i put into my profile.. :) I was amazed the first time i saw that I was inspired by the passage He revealed unto me. He's so good though I'm at home always still He make ways for me to be more closer to him each day that I lived. :) That's why the moment I wake up I'm so excited to open my account not because of humanly needs but to see what's gonna happened next - what I mean what's the new revelation. Truly Our God is so Great, Amazing! Amen. :)

This was one of the many passage that God revealed to me:

"HOWEVER, I CONSIDER MY LIFE WORTH NOTHING TO ME, IF ONLY I WOULD FINISH THE RACE AND COMPLETE THE TASK THE LORD JESUS HAS GIVEN ME -- THE TASK OF TESTIFYING TO THE GOSPEL OF GOD'S GRACE.. -Acts 20:24"

How do it suits to me?
Well almost everyone knows that I'm into Manifesto well that's the race that I'm facing nowadays, not only that the Goal that I must grew up with Him, truly Grow in Love with the Lord. I knew though I'm struggling and longing for this one person, I just have to surrender Him. I may not know what lies ahead but what I really know is that I have a Big God and He will secured me with His Endless Love and Amazing Grace. In God's time and in God's own will, I know He'll give the desires of my heart. :)

***PHIL.4:-6***
***FAITH -- ASK.BELIEVE.RECEIVE.***