100 TRUTHS ABOUT ME -- CPMPARE before and AFTER :)

WELL I ANSWERED THIS ONE before on my FB notes and now i wanted to answered it again, less boredom :) --Thursday, June 11, 2009 at 12:15pm.. before and after answer.. haha.. MY ANSWER FOR TODAY WILL BE IN CAPS LOCK..

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WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage
-sprite ♥STRAWBERRY JUICE
2. last phone call
- joyce ♥MY EVERDEAREST KUYA
3. last text message
-QUOTES: "one thing worse than quitting is being afraid to begin..always remember that doing your best is more important than being the best.." ♥YII BLEST, HAHA! (C BLEST NAMAMAG-ASANG NASA A.C. AKO.. HEHE)
4. last song you listened to
-hatin' on the club - rihanna ♥I CHOOSE YOU - MARIO
5. last time you cried
- last last last. .hmm?can't remember. . ♥LAST LAST NIGHT (KINDA JEALOUS THINGY,HAHA)

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice
- yep ♥NOW?I DON'T GO ON DATES.
7. been cheated on
- yep ♥MAYBE.BUT NOT REALLY.
8. kissed someone & regretted it
- nope ♥I CAN'T KISS SOMEONE NOWADAYS.. HAHA :)
9. lost someone special
- yep ♥MUNTIK NA.PRAISE GOD HINDI NATULOY :)
10. been depressed
- yep ♥YEP.
11. been drunk and threw up
- nope ♥NEVER.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. blue ♥BLUE
13. white ♥PURPLE
14. pink ♥GREEN

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009) (2010)
15. Made a new friend
-yesz :D ♥YEP!LOT OF FRIENDS. :)
16. Fallen out of love
-not yet.ehe :D ♥YEP. WITH MY EX..PRAISE GOD! :)
17. Laughed until you cried
-oftentimes :D ♥YII :)
18. Met someone who changed you
-yep! ♥A BIG YES! NAMAN! OITAH OH MAYLI YA PIN :)
19. Found out who your true friends were
-yep. ♥YEP!
20. Found out someone was talking about you
-waLa pa nman. ♥YEP.GOOD THINGY NAMAN :)
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list
-my girl friends :)) ♥GURLPRENS,KAPATIDS,ANAK,FRIENDS,MADAME.HAHA..BUT NOT THAT REL'N THINGY.I DON'T HAVE ONE.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life
-most of them. .♥HALOS.
23. How many kids do you want to have
- hmm. .4?haha ♥WOW, ANG GALING I HAVE 4KIDS NOWADAYS.HAHA :)
24. Do you have any pets
-aLa eh.. ♥WALA.
25. Do you want to change your name
-nope. . ♥AYAW.
26. What did you do for your last birthday
-wid someone. .someone..haha. .vsta,hapiibdae :D ♥GRAD. PRACTICE (with matching tsumatsani c ex minahal ko he held my hands..), ISSUANCE OF TOGA, DATE WITH MY GURLPRENS,KISSED AND SAW MY ANAKS, HAD STARBUCKS WITH JUANITO :)
27. What time did you wake up today
-730 ata? ♥830.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night
- sleeping..zzZ. ♥CHATTING WTH SOMEONE.FB MODE :)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for
- to be a millionaire.haha ♥JUST LEAVE IT A SECRET. :)
30. Do you have plants
- dame2. . :)) ♥OPCORS,FARMVILLE. :)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
-hmm. . ♥MY RELIGION.
32. What are you listening to right now?
-sound of silence,haha. .nakakabinging katahimikan! ♥SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS. :)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?
-so far?ala pa.ehe ♥WALA PA.
34. What's on your mind right now?
-sana maging maayos na farm town ko pati yoville n petsoc,haha. .dna ako umasenso.ala tiyaga.LOL :))

♥MADAME KAMI SA WED. NYT SWIMMING.MIS MY HS PEERS :)
35. Most visited webpage
- facebook,tagged,friendster.. ♥WOW I MISSED MY TAGGED ACCOUNT, ANYWAYS FB, TWITTER, BLOGGER :)
36. What's your real name?
- CARIZZA RAMIREZ ♥CARIZZA CORDERO RAMIREZ
37. Nicknames?
- cang. .♥CANG, MS.MINJIN(COZ I LOKKED MASUNGIT DAW)
38. Relationship Status?
-complicated,haha. .chill out men! nakakain ba ito?LOL :D ♥HAPPY AND BLESSED WITH DADDY GOD
39. Zodiac sign?
-aries ♥ARIES
40. Male or female?
- female ♥FEMALE
41. Elementary?
- Sta. Rita Catholic School ♥S.R.C.S.
42. Middle School?
- St. Catherine's Academy ♥S.C.A.
43. High school?
- St. Catherine's Academy♥S.C.A.
44. Hair colour?
- black ♥BLACK
45. Long or short?
-long..♥SHORT
46. Height?
-i think 5'3 ♥5'4
47. Do you have a crush on someone?
-dame2 crushes.ehe ♥OPCORS! :)
48: What do you like about yourself?
-i love faithfully. .i love being myself :D ♥POSITIVE THINKER. LOVE BEING LOVE AND LOVING OTHERS. I AM REAL. :)
49. Piercing?
-ears. .♥EARS.
50. Tattoos?
-henna lang b4,arms. .♥WALA NGAYON EH.
51. Righty or lefty?
- righty :D ♥RIGHTY :)

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery
- aLa pa. ♥WALA.
53. First piercing
- ears. ♥EARS.
54. First best friend
- mimoza ♥MIMOZA, BUT NOWADAYS PURO GUY BF KO :)
55. First sport you joined
-jumping rope.haha ♥J.R.
56. First vacation
-hmm.baguio?ewan,haha. ♥BAGUIO WITH FAMILY.
58. First pair of slippers
-naman,malay ko pa tagal na nun. .♥EWAN?HAHA.

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating
- nope.♥NOPE.
60. Drinking
- nope.♥NOPE.
61. I'm about to
- text♥SEE IF. BUT.THAT'S WHY I JUST POST A BLOG. :)
62. Listening to
- nothing 3SPONGEBOB.HAHA
63. Waiting on
- signal.haha,nawawalan ng signal sa area na i2.haha
♥HIM?JOKE LANG.. HAHA.. WAITING FOR BDO CALL. :)
YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?
- xympz :)) ♥ABSOLUTELY! :)
65. Get Married?
- yep.with the one i love n dapat love nya din ako,para happily ever after.:D ♥ABSOLUTELY WITH. :)
WHICH IS BETTER :

66. Lips or eyes
- eyes ♥EYES.
67. Hugs or kisses
- hugs =) ♥HUGS. (siyempre di pwede kiss ngayon)
68. Shorter or taller
- taller! ♥TALLER
69. Older or Younger
- older ♥OLDER.
70. Romantic or spontaneous
- both ♥BOTH.
71. Nice butt or nice legs
- legs ♥BOTH
72. Sensitive or loud
- sensitive ♥BOTH
73. Hook-up or relationship
- relationship :D ♥REL'N.
74. Trouble maker or hesitant?
- trouble-maker :D ♥NO ONE.

HAVE YOU EVER :

75. Kissed a stranger
- nde pa nman.haha ♥NOPE.
76. Drank hard liquor
- yep! ♥SAN PERO PRAISE GOD HNDI NA NGAYON. :)
77. Lost glasses/contacts
- nope. ♥NOPE.
78. Sex on first date
- waLa pa nman ako sa ganun leveL.haha ♥DUH? HAHA.. NOPE!
79. Broken someone's heart
- yep. ♥DUNNO? MAYBE NOT. :)
80. Had your own heart broken
- yep. ♥BAGYA.PERO I,M HAPPY WITH DADDY GOD.
81. Been arrested
- nope. ♥NOPE.
82. Turned someone down
- yep. ♥NOPE.
83. Cried when someone died
- yep. ♥YEP.
84. Fallen for a friend?
- naman,malapit na. ♥YEP.
85. katrina or aling dionisia?
- Katrina xympz may hayden cam.haha ♥DUH.HAHA

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself
- NAMAN! :D ♥ABSOLUTELY, 100%! :)
87. Miracles
- sometimes,i do :)) ♥FAITH! :)
88. Love at first sight
- yep. ♥AT SECOND SIGHT.HAHA :)
89. Heaven
- yesz :D ♥KINGDOM OF GOD :)
90. Santa Claus
- nde.ehe ♥NUNG BATA AKO. :)
91. Kiss on the first date
- hmm.. ♥WALA NGANG DATE.OT NG.HAHA :))
92. Angels
- yes.♥I AM :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time
- nope. ♥NOPE.
95. Did you sing today?
- yes :D ♥YEP.-MARIO.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?
- nope.♥NOPE.I WON'T DO THAT.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?
- I won't go back in time. :D ♥I WON'T, ENJOY WHAT LIES AHEAD. :)
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relieve it?
- cgro when i had a someone special in the org. sana friends nalang pala. .ehe :D

♥SAME THING. HOW I'D WISH I NEVER SHOW CARESSED FOR HIM WHEN HE SAID HE LOVE ME PA. SO THAT HINDI AKO ULIT NASAKTAN AND UMASA. PLUS M----- SANA HINDI KO SIYA MINAHAL. :)
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?
-nope.afraid of falling OUT of love. ♥NOPE.I GROW IN LOVE WITH DADDY GOD. :)
100. Posting this as 100 truths?
- 100 naba 2?naaliw ako ha. ehe ♥BITIN. HEHE :)

***SEEING THE DIFFERENCE,MAKES ME LAUGH***

***I MISS***

Walang Kwenta

Nag-iisip

Nagmumuni-muni

Di mawari ano ang dapat gawin

Ako ba'y matutulog na

O mag-iisip na lamang?

Masakit man tanggapin

Ngunit batid ko ito ang dapat gawin

Kailangan ko ng matulog, napakasakit

At naloka at namurit at naloka

Nawiwindang di ko alam ang susunod

Natatawa, nababaliw sa kakaisip

E kung miss ka niya

Kailangan mo din bang sabihan ng I Miss You?

E kung mahal, mahal na ang bilihin ngayon

Paano na, magmamahal ka pa din ba?

Naloloka,Namumurit, Namumuting sabi nga nila

Ihh.. Natatawa nanaman ako..

Bakit ganyan? Ganyan ba talaga ang kulay ng mundo?

Grabe naloloka lang ako..

At palagay ko napakawalang kwenta ng tulang ito.

Tula nga ba? O sadyang wala lang ako magawa??

***SPEECHLESS***

***SLEEPLESS***

***SICKNESS***

PAMUNILAWEN???

ING LUGUD MAKAPANENAYA YA

LALU NA KUNG ING TAUNG KALUGURAN MU LULUGURAN NAKA DIN..

EYUMAN BALU MAKANANU KASAKIT ING DALANAN YU..

NUNG KALUGURAN NAKA TALAGA GAWAN NA ING EGANA-GANA..

MANAYA AT MANAYA YA PA RIN PARA KING LUGUD A TUTU NANU MAN MALYARI..

***T.S.--I.C.Y.***

***Ask.Believe.Receive***

i entitled this as PAMUNILAWEN though i dunno the meaning of that word..haha..that word just kept repeating on my mind the moment i wake up..maybe i'd dreamed of someone, something that must be remembered but i forgotten it.. special dream to be discovered someday?? :)

REMINISCING PENIEL

These were some of the photos taken in our Youth Leadership Camp in Peniel last Nov. 4-6, 2009:)

Out of boredom i go out in our house and had a chit-chat with my friends..

Two of my closest friend in town..

we got to Peniel all together and together we reminisce the thing and stuffs about everything there..

I miss this people.. I seldom talked to them because i'm a taong bahay..

We had talked also this stuff that really bothers

me..

And as one my friends said and I agree with that..

"we're only humans and sometimes we do failed also.."

We're not that perfect, but leastwise we know our boundaries..

Hey! Anyways I miss those bonded moments with them.. haha.. :))

Those kulitans with my room mates and kuentuhan ever..

Surely I'll never regret the day spent with them.. ^^.

***KUDOS***

***tao lang-nagkakamali din***

i miss reminding you! :)

hey! it's 10pm.. let's pray..

for the first time i won't remind you that thingy..

you've been a part of my daily routine..

especially that 10pm habit..

***missing --- badly***

***BIOGESIC***

POSITIVE VIBES - 1 more week! :)

it's been a week since my interview at BDO..
and honestly i'm being paranoid if i would get that job..
i can't left my phone anywhere.. wherever i go, my phone is with me..waiting for the call..
mixed emotions..
though my parents don't oblige me to find work still i'm praying i could get this one..
i don't wanna be left all alone at home..
i wanted to help my parents with the bills and other stuffs..
and learned with my own, not to be dependent on my parents..
i know many believed that i would get this job..
thanks for those people..
they make me feel more stronger..

***PRAY.PRAY.PRAY***
***Phil.4:6***

Yes YOU! :)

if only you knew..
i send that message just for you..
though i send it to others..
still you're the one i've been waiting for..
no reply.. it hurts..
but it's ok.. ignore me..
cherish this love of mine or not..
my love for you won't fail..

143RD DAY OF THE YEAR :(
***iii♥ÜÜÜ***

James' Poet For Me

Carizza Ramirez

Clever yet naive
And easily wounded in love.
Restless to find the right person
In the wrong time.
Zany to a certain extent;
Zealously she continues to love
And falls countless times.

Re-assure her if you want her
And never play games.
Mend all the cracks
In her fragile heart.
Remember this if you desire:
Eclipse her insecurities and a
Zesty undying relationship would be yours to have.

James Callos Jordan© 2010

Saturday, May 22, 2010 | Isinulat ni jacajo noong 5/22/2010

***SENTIMENTS OF MY HEART***

***very touching,but what you have written about me is so true***

***you know my heart and it's way***

***i do long for someone who won't fail my heart***

***i'm tired of being left out***

***You're one of my best buddy when it comes to heart aches,and you've seen me crying for many times.***

***I Love You Kuya! You're so dear to me.***

***Can the man of my dreams read this poet so he won't see me shed tears and just be happy with him until the end of time???***

***LOVE.LOVE.LOVE-How true is it?Show it to me if you love me.Make me feel LOVED.***

MELANCHOLY

Time pass by
Moments lingers.

Patiently waiting your love
Longing for your love.

Hoping and Praying
Loving and Caring silently.

Love may fade away
But memories will last.

Perhaps not meant for each other
But in God's time surely will see.

Come what may
I Will Always Be Here.

***LOVE WAITS PATIENTLY***
***ENDURE***

ANAK-ANAKAN

Napanaginipan ko ang aking 3 anak-anakan. Hindi ko alam bakit.. Naalala ko tuloy ang mga maliligayang araw na kasama ko sila. Sobrang miss ko na sila at gusto ko silang yakapin. Sina Ina, Ems at Anjo ay mga anak-anakan ko sa organisasyon - Theatre Guild -- silang taatlo ang pinakamalapit sa akin. Meron pang isa si Lovely pero ewan ko nakakatuwa man isipin pero siya ang nakakapagpaiyak sa akin, napakatigas ng batang ito at hindi ko alam paano siya amuhin. Mahirap kasi kahit anong sabihin mo sarili lang niya ang kanyang susundin.

Namimiss ko ang panahon kasam ko sila sa tambayan. Lagi silang nakatambay doon, samantalang ako madalang lang. Pag may oras pinupuntahan ko sila, at super nawawala ang aking stress pag nakikita ko sila kamayan sabay hug and kiss at sabing momii/nanay.. Hay nakakamiss ang mga panahong iyon, kwentuhan, kulitan, tampuhan.

Si Ems yan ang anak-anakan ko never pa nagkaroon ng bf, at natutuwa ako sa kanya kahit may nagkakagusto sa kanya never niya inEntertain at lagi niya akong sinasabahin kung ano dapat niyang gawin. Marunong din ang batang ito. Mabait at mapagmahal sa dada niya kahit lagi siyang ginagabi pag nasosobrahan sa tambay. Madalas niya din akong bigyan ng mga chocolates, si mama niya kasi nasa ibang bansa. Napakasweet nito at lagi niyang gustong magkabalikan daw kami ng ex ko sa TG para may daddy na daw sila. Subalit ngayon iba na ang gusto niya para sa akin. Bagay daw kami at lagi ko naman daw maasahan ang lalaking ito. Kung alam lang niya ako din gusto ko ang lalaking ito pero hindi pa ngayon ang tamang oras, kung pwede nga lang.

Si Love, anak ko ito na may anak na. Hindi ko mawari ang kanyang ugali. Pati boyfriend niya nahihirapan sa kanya. Tanging si Ina lamang ang pinapakinggan kaya pag ako nagpapayo nasasaktan ako kasi parang binabalewala niya mga pangaral ko. Pero yun siya, dapat ko nalang siyang intindihin at mahalin.

Si Anjo ito ang lalaking ko anak-anakan natawa ako kung paano ko siya naging anak kasi daw naiingit siya sa iba dahil momii nila ako. Itong batang ito ay napakakulit at malambing, Subalit pag may problema ito, nanahimik lamang at matagal bago mo mapaamin kung ano ang dinaramdam niya. Madami nagkakagusto sa batang ito pero ang kanyang tinitibok ay hinihintay pa lamang niya, Sana maging sila ng kanyang iniibig para mapawi ang pangungulila niya sa mga kaibigan.

Si Ina, ito ang pinakmalapit sa aking puso. Sobrang namimiss ko siya dahil nagkaroon ng lamat ang aming pagsasamahan ng magkaroon ng pag-iibigan sa kanila ng dati kong inibig. Pero ngayon ayos na ang lahat, hindi ako nagalit dahil nagmahalan sila kundi dahil hindi lang niya sinabi sa akin ang lahat. Gayunman ayos na kami ngayon at unti-unti ng bumabalik ang dati. Napakalambing din ng batang ito kaya mahal na mahal ko siya.

Mga anak-anakan ko, malalambing silang lahat at mahal na mahal ko. Nakakatuwa man isipin na ayaw na nilang magkaroon ng kapatid na iba, kaya pag may nagsasabing pwede ba kitang maging mommy? Lagi ko sinasabihan na mag-apply sila sa mga anak ko. Kakatuwa pero ayaw nila,gusto nila sila lang apat. Namimiss ko din ang kakulitan nila pag hinahanapan nila ako ng lalaking magmahal sa kin para may Daddy na daw sila. Mga anak ko, tunay kong mahal.

***MAHAL KAYO NI NANAY***

CORPORATE WORLD (Part 2) +++ MY THURSDAY

Hello Makati! ^__^
Here we are again going somewhere we don't know..haha..
but it's really fun.. a new experience..
it's just like i know how to get back and forth in manila.. haha.. :))
but guess what on our way there, there were these 3 goons..(ang sama ko neh..haha)
these 3 guys who kept staring at us, and unluckily we don't know what they're talking about..
they were speaking in different language! hate those guys..
they're not in their country why don't they show a little respect.. jeeze!

anyways enough with those goons..haha..
we arrived at Makati around 11am..
too early for the interview - 130..
So we decided to go window shopping, and we had our tour guide.. yeah!
He's so generous.. He make sure that were all right(touching!)
Malls there were connected via overpass.. how cute.. haha..
SM-Glorietta-Greenbelt-Landmark..
Greenbelt -- sossy mall.. haha.. ^__^

INTERVIEW..
Our way on North Tower we ride on a taxi..
Luckily it's not that expensive.. and the mabait na guy pay for us.. :)
Whoa! on the way to the 9th floor.. the building has 22 floors..
And there we are, at first i'm not that nervous - i didn't feel that thingy..
While waiting i'm just praying ang kept repeating the verse on my mind for me not to worry *Phil.4:6..
But when i'm being interviewed slowly i'm feeling it and i run out of words to say..
I don't know why i felt that way.. I felt that i didn't get what she expect me to be. (the lady who interviewed me.) But then after that she give me something to fill up..
And i'm not that ok after the interview coz i felt that i didn't show my best.. (running out of words)
But then, i pray with this verse *Phil3:13-14 -running toward the goal..
Whoa after all of us were interviewed i feel much ok due to the case of the guys that they even had the chance to fill up those papers that they gave to us..
Come what may.. If it's God's will and then I'll have that work..
Praying within the 2weeks span that they're saying I'll be called for work..
If not, it's ok.. Maybe then God has a better plan for it..
I just have to wait patiently.. :)

And after that, we had window shopping again..
We had lots of fun, enjoy each other company, and gain more knowledge dealing with the persons around us.. :)
Whoa what a tiring day.. and on our way home we experienced standing ovation on a bus..
haha.. it's funny how to be in that situation.. but that''s life.. what an experience..
thankfully we stand for a while only..
and the last bus our way home, i fell asleep in Jessie's shoulder.. thanking that gentle guy.. :)
But unexpectedly he didn't hatid me.. haha.. whatta.. i dunno to him what's on his my mind.. i was shocked then..
anyways i had great time with Juanito (haha) though for a while..
I just missed this guy a lot.. :)
Bonding @ 711, had a walk on the way to terminal and prayed with him..
I'm happy though we can't be what we wanted to be in between the two of us still we hold on to God's promise.. I may not show how i really care for him but in God's time i can..
May God bless our hearts, keep them safe and warm..
I dwell all of this things in you Lord God..

***WE KNOW THAT IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR GOOD WITH THOSE WHO LOVE HIM, THOSE WHOM HE HAS CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.***
***DON'T WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING, BUT IN ALL YOUR PRAYERS ASK GOD FOR WHAT YOU NEED, ALWAYS ASKING HIM WITH A THANKFUL HEART.***
***OF COURSE, MY BROTHERS, I REALLY DON'T THINK THAT I WON IT; THE ONE THING I DO, HOWEVER, IS TO FORGET WHAT IS BEHIND ME AND DO MY BEST TO REACH WHAT IS AHEAD. SO I RUN STRAIGHT TOWARD THE GOAL IN ORDER TO WIN THE PRIZE, WHICH IS GOD'S CALL THROUGH CHRIST JESUS TO THE LIFE ABOVE.***

NO.NO.NO -- NO WAY ^_^

"I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU ANYMORE, don't wanna be the one to play your games."

"one last cry,one last cry BEFORE I LEAVE YOU ALL BEHIND i got to put you out of my mind."

"but baby BEFORE I LET YOU GO, i want to say i love you."

"it was easy, easy to leave you,GOODBYE."

"don't you come around.just let go of me now.GOODBYE.GOODBYE."

"GOODBYE TO YOU,goodbye to everything i thought i knew.."

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i won't let you hear that songs coming from me.. ^_^

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"coz there is only one thing, two thing, three words for you.. I LOVE YOU.."

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♥LA.LA.LOVE♥
♥shunei.shunrei.kuale♥
♥I'M SINGING♥

SO CLOSE TO THE BONES - DEATH

Last saturday i almost died..
Praise God i'm alive..
If ever i died without knowing nothing..
It was then my way to my auntie's house..
I've been to the church - gig..
i don't feel ok that day but I choose to go there..
My heart is in fire with the Lord..
There is something that makes me wanna go there..
Whoa! I shed a tear.. tears.. =(
Giving him up, yes it's one of the hardest thing that i've done..
And when i saw him, i can't say nothing..
I wanna hug him tight but i don't have the courage..
But i can't take it anymore, i hug him before I left, saying nothing about what happened to me..
Not to mention anything else.. PERIOD.. =)

Let's go back on my story.. haha..
On my way home, I'm not in the mood then..
I feel nothing..
I feel so clumsy that moment..
That I wanna breakdown and cry til it hurts more and more..
But then, at the middle of the ride in fell asleep listening to songs of praise..
I'm so tired then, i had a little sleep then because i've been to ortigas yesterday..
All of a sudden, boom! whoa! what happened?
My heart beats so fast that i don't even know what is happening, it was then i realized that I almost died.. WE almost died, all of the passengers..
At the front of the jeepney was a truck,oh whoa!
If it happens then, i didn't even know what's the cause of my death coz i'm sleeping..
Praise God nothing happens and the jeep we're we ride didn't run too fast..

"AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF JESUS -- I'M ALIVE! =)"
"LUCKY ME -- GOD HAS MORE PLAN FOR ME AHEAD.."
"THANK YOU, LOVE YOU DADDY GOD.."

CORPORATE WORLD =)

whoa! we went to Ortigas, Greenhills yesterday for a examination..
Guess what? We don't know how to get there and to come back here in pampanga.. haha
But luckily we've made it.. and yes we really made it! :)
Wee! we passed the exam and we will have our interview in this coming May 20 at Makati..
MAKATI?? whoa.. new experience again..
how can we get there again? haha..
just asked the MMda for further directions?
be a Mr. & Ms. MAGTANONG? haha..
EXACTLY! You got it right we don't know how we will get there again..
But we will pursue our dreams and aim high..
Looking forward to be hired, (I RECEIVED!)

Praying that all of us will be hired at the same company..
I do enjoy the time that i've spent with jessie and adrian.. :)
Thanks guys.. ^^.
And I'm happy that I learned something from the people we've met there..
They were all optimistic but unfortunately one of the people we've met didn't passed the exam..
Maybe it's God's will then..


A PART OF ME..
While on our way there til i got home a part of me is dying little by little..
I don't know why should i ought to feel that way..
=(

ANYWAYS..
"NEVER FROWN UP."
"SMILE left and right ALWAYS."


FINALLY..
I wanna thank our good Lord God, I'm holding his promise..
PHIL. 3:13-14 (GOAL-PRIZE)
whoa.. and looked at that verse I've read it at the 3rd month of My Manifesto, dated 13. and I'm looking forward for what vwill happened on the exam which is dated 14.. isn't it amazing? ^^.

"I WILL FOLLOW YOU!"
"HOLD ON TO YOUR PROMISE, UNTIL THE END."

NEVER -- (unfinished)

Never come close
If later just pass by
Never touch me
If later you'll bid goodbye


=(

GREATNESS =)

Having a talk with Him made me more focus and see how great our God is.

I read the Book of Job and wow whatta a revelation for me..
I'm inspired more and more to do things for God's glory.
I've known Him much better, His marvelous works for us.
Maybe sometimes we need to face circumstances for us to see how big our Faith is.
I know He won't fail us, and the things that are coming up are the challenges in life that we need to face through.
Sometimes we fail to say a little prayer or thank you for all the good things that we received but inspite of this things He never Left us behind..
He was always there, we can't see Him but He can see us..
He guide us through in our journey in this so called Life..
He knows when He would come, when we need Him most..
Isn't He great? Wow! Say nothing no more..
Just do it for God's glory and in return his promise for you won't fail.
Love Him like His unfailing love for you.. =)

This were some of the verses that I loved:

JOB 5:8
"But as for me, I would seek God and to God i would commit my cause."

JOB22:22
"Receive, please, instruction from His mouth, and lay up His words in your heart."

JOB28:23
"God understands it's ways, and He knows it's place."

JOB28:28
"And to man He said. 'Behold the fear of the Lord, that is wisdom, and to depart from evil is understanding."

JOB37:5
"God thunders marvelously with His voice. He does things which we cannot comprehend."

***I RECEIVED***
^_^

TIME with THEM =)

05-08-10 [SATURDAY]
A day before the fiesta -- a tiring day, everyone on my mother side were busy cooking and i can't do nothing but to be the best TAGS(sabi nga ni chubs.haha^^) TAGS as in tagahiwa, tagalagay, basta may taga.. haha.. obviously i'm not that into cooking that's why when i have chance to escape i'm grabbing the opportunity and i would only sleep.. haha.. :)
Saturday night and i'm with my lola's house helping them to assist their visitors and as usual they're asking for my boyfriend and as a usual my answer is that i don't have boyfriend at all and they won't believe, they would just asked me my ex-boyfriend the first one though they don't know that we had our past relation still they always ask him all over again it's because my tito's boss was his uncle. And his uncle come that night with his wife and siblings luckily my ex wasn't with them..
After a while when their visitors were only few i got the chance to go to my cousins (father side).. and wee! i'm with them, it's bonding time.. The friends of my cousin were there too and i'm close with them, we throw jokes with each other.. I find myself laughing and laughing, enjoying each other company.. And guess what, that night we sleep in the computer shop.. haha :)

05-09-10
FIESTA! wee.. we wake up early and we helped our titas'(father side) on doing the cooking as usual my role - TAGS.. =) stepping stone.. haha =)
I had my visitor for the first time and this two people are so dear to me.. We had bonded moments even for a while. And no doubt i enjoyed their company, i used being with them and i bet i just missed them. I felt sorry that i can't hug him, haha.. but it's ok, for God's glory -- endure! =)
When they left i had dinner with my cousins, the last supper.. haha.. just kidding, i was so happy that i eat again with the same table with my everdearest cousin - King, i missed this guy a lot.. I ate with them, i'm the only girl in that table, whoa! I would miss this thing maybe on Christmas is the next event that we can be together again.. =(
After that, we go to poblacion and we watched sta cruzan. While waiting for it we had time for pictorials, haha.. We loved capturing our bonded moments.. And whoa, when the artists were already there we find ourselves shouting their names.. haha.. We're not an avid fan of them but it's so kiligs when he smiles.. haha.. I'm pertaining to Will D. --this video was taken that night - so closed.. =)



After seeing them, we went back to our cousin's house and decided not to see the singing contest, i got tired and feel something unusual. I hate feeling that way - i had hard time in breathing. =( But Praise God, nothing happened to me. =)

05-10-10
First time to vote and i'm so excited, haha.. Honestly i don't know who will i vote then, coz i knew nothing about politics. I just asked my tatay and relatives whom shall i vote and they give me a copy.. haha.. Before going to my precinct, i had a bonding time with my little cousin and he kept cheering for Bestre David, his tito running for councilor.. This video was my little cousin showing how he his supportive with his tito..





In a while, we went voting then.. And whoa it's so hot! My head aches then, i thought it would only be for a while but i waited for 150minutes before i finished voting. It's just like taking exams in school - shading.. haha.. but the time we've waited is worth a while for the betterment of our country atleast i have patience in waiting and made my vote be counted and i become a part of the election2010 ^^.
I didn't have my lunched then i just ate mangoes and then sleep when i arrived in my cousin's house. =)
We had pictorial then too - my pregnant cousins - we took shots of her.. ^^.
We ate together with the same table with my lola's house (father side).. whoa.. i'll surely miss this bonded moments with them..
And this night also i was so favored that i received a text from Laus Company inviting me for an examination and interview at the same time. I was so lucky enough, because i received a text message while unfortunately my friend (mye) didn't. (hope so one of this days she would received a message too.) But then I don't have my TOR, haha.. It sounds funny that i don't worry that much though my requirements were not complete.. I just go out and went to the shop to unwind together with my cousins and this video ws them -- having fun with them. Endless Laughters.. indeed Ramirez were so talented.. :)




After taking up their video i go to my lola's house and decided there to sleep coz i will go home early. I slept together with my li'l cousin - janvier, i feel pity for him that he woke up many times because of his fever. For a while i just hold him and start praying for him, for his pain to be lessen i can't bear seeing and hearing him crying. =( Praise God after a while he was calm and fell asleep. =)

05-11-10
Wee! I'm so excited to go to Laus.. ^^. But oopsie! when i arrived at home they don't want me to go, because no one would be in charge of the workers at home.. No choice, i didn't pursue to go in Laus. A tear feell on my eyes, thinking it was my chance then but i just can't go. I go to the room of my kuya and close my eyes, then in a while i thought of texting Mr. Cj - the one who texted me last night saying sorry for i can't come and hoping that he would reschedule my exam. And once again I feel so favored and he set a new schedule for me -- Tuesday next week! =)
Whoa whatta a way to start a day.. It won't end up with nothing.. Thanks Daddy God ^^.
--then after that i'm ok, no more sadness so i decided to wash our clothes.. while singing praise for Him.. ^^.

***HE NEVER FAILS TO SHOW HOW HE MUCH LOVE US SO***
--MAKING EVERY OF OUR DAY WORTH A WHILE--
[♥ÜÜÜ♥ I'M YOURS ♥ÜÜÜ♥]

what a feelin..

whoa..

expect no more..

stop..

just give your best shot..

just show the real who you are carizza ^^.

SMILE left&right ALWAYS:)

GODLY.ELITE.KIDDO. -- MR. HARRY POTTER =)

Let me introduce to you Mr. Harry Potter or in reality Mr. Darby Bognot..
I don't know why all of a sudden i just missed reading his blogs..
Maybe because of one of the people i met yesterday, Migs -- they had similarities, a little only which made me reminds of Mr. Harry.. :)

This person is fun to be with and i do admire him of his good voice and specially his blogs..
Whenever I read his blogs, I feel so much blessed and found myself just smiling thinking nothing but only of Him (not Mr. Potter but i do refer to God) ^^.
He always inspires me and I guess what i really miss about him is the time we spent chatting..
Yah right! I miss that thing, we're not that close but whenever we had time or he caught me online during afternoon, he'll buzz me up.. And would say, "boring sa office eh, ngchat lang ako patago..haha.." Then the conversation will start talking about different topics, and sometimes we do talked about our future bf/gf..
Guys, F.Y.I. he had "NO GF, SINCE BIRTH"
yeah,that's true! it might sounds funny at all but for me i admire him for that thing..
He is a God-fearing person and loved all the persons around him..
This person was so so so so matalino, haha.. i always end up napipikon whenever he throw questions with me.. I end up being a looser.. haha.. but somehow he had a point always, that's why I accept the fact that I won't win over him.. ^^.
I do miss that bonding time we had before, unlike today because i seldom go online that's why I don't have the chance to had a conversation with him..
I feel blessed knowing this person, which in fact whenever I had a problem I just wanted to read his blogs which touch my heart because I see God in him.. (ok,hopefully he won't read this one..haha.. i don't know what his blogsite nowadays..i wanted to read his blogs..)

This phrase from the bible was written on the his blogs which I've read a while ago and I do admit this verse fits to me nowadays..

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart

- Psalms 37:4

In my situation right now, I'm really looking forward on the things that can have a big change in my life and would make me whole again.. I'm holding on to your promise oh God,never let go of me.. I JUST WANT YOU :)

HOPE :)

goodmorning my heart :) how are you? haha..
ok it's early in the morning that's why i'm being weirdo again..
it's 6a.m. just finished taking a bath but not yet dressed..haha..
i just miss blogging ^^.

yeah.. no looking back.. maybe time would past away..
but this feeling won't end.. :)
i won't assure myself with what would happened after a year instead i would focus on what i should oughta do..
maybe after a year he won't feel the way he used to feel the past few days..
but i'm praying whom the lucky might be can make him happier that no one else could do..
i'm always praying for his sake not even thinking mine..
yah right, somehow i'm being selfish to myself that i wanted to give everything i had..

hoping everything would be settle..
hoping that though it won't happened today still he'll be more happier..
hoping that someone could really put smiles in his face..
hoping that no one could hurt him..
hoping.. hoping..hoping ^^.
[[what's on my mind now?hoping i won't be late..haha..it's my test today and i don't know the place where i would take the test.. and praying that this time i could have my first job.. yeah! I RECEIVED ^^ ]]

Oh God guide him and give him strength in everyday of his lives..
You know how much special he is not only to you but for me too..
Let him make feel loved everyday of his lives though that love won't come by me..
Blessed him more and more with your abundance grace especially his family..
THANK YOU :)

"I am blessed beyond the curse, for His promise will endure and His joy's gonna be my strength. ♥ÜÜÜ♥"

RUNAWAY =(

hey you! sleep! oh my! it's 12:20 am in the morning and i must be sleeping right now.. but he's running on my mind..
i love that i hate it..
i'm not that fine coz i can't be with him the moment he needs me but some can..
if only.. oh my! i'm struggling all over again..

what goes to my mind right now?
i wanna go somewhere where i can't see him no more..
it hurts.. it really hurts that i can't bear it anymore..
i'm longing for him more and more.. :(


SENTIMENTS OF MY HEART..

-PAINFUL :(

TALKING TO MYSELF

HOW ARE YOU?

Well, i'm not that good still i can't help myself to stop thinking about him.. Somehow wishing that he can be mine but when in fact he can't be mine.. (reality check!) Many stuffs were running into my mind the moment i wake up til i close my eyes all i can see was him.. I find it hard to get rid of him..
All the memories in Subic were flashing back (weirdo!).. How i'd wish it could stop coz the more i think of him the more i'm getting weaker and make me wanna say that i wanted him more and more.. The beauty he possess inside and out makes me wanna fall in love again with him and i kept saying on my mind how lucky is the girl he'll choose in 2011. :)

CHOOSE? I CHOOSE YOU.. =))
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNu6Ma-rmOQ&feature=related
A PART THAT I WANTED TO SING FOR HIM:
"through my desire, Thank God I found the fire, Oh. . Everything led me straight to you..
whenever you want it,
whenever you need,
whatever you feel like it's gonna be like you better believe it,
whenever you feel like dancing you don't have to dance alone,
You know, you know, you know.. You should already know..
--I CHOOSE YOU! ♥Ü"

On the other hand, I'm praying that if it's really God's will to let this things happened then i'll gladly accept it.. All i have to do is to put my trust in him and never stop believing that everything happens for a reason.. And whatever purpose it is i'll be happier knowing that God never fails to show His love for me.. And if in 2011 he can be mine then it's God's will.. ^^.
I'm not looking forward to it but i'm thankful though for a while i felt being in love with him..

FOCUS.FOCUS.FOCUS. -- GREATER REWARDS COMING ON YOUR WAY CARIZZA =))

"To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die ;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.
ECCLESIASTES 3:1-8

Therefore, everything happens in God's time in His own will.. FAITH! ♥ÜÜÜ♥