A PIECE OF ADVICE

I'm fun of helping others and giving some sorts of advices that know that could help them a lot. Maybe one of my gift is t advice a friend when love matters -- boy and girl relationships. Funny how could advice others while on my own part, somehow i'm having a hard time dealing with it. But then luckily, i'm learning. Learn to apply those things before sharing it to others. And I'm thankful to Daddy God for giving me that strong and enduring heart. :)

One of my church mates, a friend of mine is having a hard time with her ex-boyfriend. She signed into Manifesto too, also the guy but then at times she's struggling because of her ex-bf issues when it comes to other girls. And on my part i know it's hard to deal with it, though you know you surrender to Daddy God but sometimes you're on the weakest point that because of that feeling all you have to do is to surrender again, all over again. Why so? Maybe you're missing the point. You surrender yet you keep questioning Daddy God,
"why he's like that? We signed into a contract but then it seems like he's not into it? And now i'm hurting because of him. I hate being like this, i wanted to feel it no more when it comes to him. I wanted to be more focus, die to myself and at least stop thinking about him."
STOP. Ok. We surrender right? All you have to do now is to entrust everything to Daddy God, don't think of the guy/lady you wanted at the end of your Manifesto because eventually you'll be hurt when he/she picks another person, right? Just trust Daddy God, He knows what your heart's desires for and you'll see at the end of it, the reward awaiting for you is much more than you expected, be obedient. He knows us more than we know Him and He'll give the best reward you wanted at the right time. We just have to wait patiently. And if He give the man that our heart's desires - I will rejoice and love Daddy God. But then if he's not for me - I will still rejoice and love Daddy God. Let your will be done. :)

***PHIL.4:6***

07-29-10

I wake up early this morning around 4a.m. and i can't sleep. What i did? I wrestle in prayer. :)

1st- This day i go to San Fernando in Capitol and before going on my destination i saw Kuya Darby and as usual handshake and smile and bid goodbye for a while. A fact in me, I really hate long hours of traveling, but now i'm learning, Praise God. I had experienced for the first time reading book outdoor, I read on the park in front of the NBI while waiting for my cousins without minding the people around me. I just read the book, then pause for a while just to look around, the ambiance, people and everything there. What caught my attention is the beggar, his one eye cannot see and his hands whoa. don't wanna mention it, but he had disabilities. He come to me asking for money but then what i did i give him a cupcake. Funny but that's true. At some point, being all alone there not even knowing the people around you put a smile on my face that i can tell myself i'm matured enough to deal with it. :)

2nd - NSO. I went to the office of my father, i borrowed his phone luckily he brings two cellphones then, i though my phone was not working so i went to him. I'm a shy type as usual, haha. Guess what i can't even looked at my father's co-workers, walked with my face down and they were all staring with me. haha. I left then but before i left i gave to my father some biscuits and C2. haha.. Am i sweet? Not at all. :))

3rd - OTW to Angeles to meet our LG leader for Life Group, but then because of signal error, i thought my sim wasn't working at all so i decided to go at SM Clark to check if globe connection shut down only or my it's my sim that had a problem. Luckily not my sim, i honestly go in panic. Why? Because all i can think then is that my number on every resume that i passed in different companies is that one. Praise God, everything was fine. I went to a cafe, to check out if my LG leader is online but unluckily he wasn't but thanks God Again one of my closest friend was, blest, and i tell her to text him. And then they texted and he meets me at SM.

4th - Chowking. I ate their before the LG plus Fruitas as always, haha. But i'm out of my mind then. Don't wanna tell the whole story, you might laugh at me. As he did. haha. Praise God again i know the manager at chowking and she helps me. I'm eating for about an hour, why? I'm sleepy plus i do talks with him. Haha. We never run out of stories.

5th - Johnny's Supermarket. Lg was held there. To sum it up -- It's all about surrendering. Surrendering everything to Daddy God. If it is His will, so be it. You just have to trust Him in everything. No more worries, no hesitations, just surrender. And challenge again in my own LG to have my own word. I'm so excited again. I'm holding unto God's promises. :)

6th - at home. No works.
at FB, i was blessed with this 2nd year college, a friend of my one Lg member. I'm praying that he'll join our LG next week. I don't worry because i know he'll be there if it's God's will. And Blest too. :)

***NEW GENERATION***
***TO GOD BE THE GLORY***

07-27-10

Wednesday. I'm so excited. Why? It's my Life Group, a day sharing How Great is Our God. It's all about Jesus. And whoa, with his promise with me - Genesis 12:2. What more can i ask for? I just can't hide the joy that i'm feeling right now. A
nd it was so amazing that most of my members arrived that day,and what's funny about this, First, one of my member had his practice but then i told him to wait (due to traffic,road construction, i was late) he was in a hurry but the last minute i said to him, "ok cge,bahala ka. eto lang nak, Matthew 6:33 -Seek ye first the Kingdom of God...." And guess what i arrived at school and he didn't go.
Second, I made one of them cry. Why? Maybe it's because she see and appreciate Jesus by means of me. I'm overwhelmed.
I can't really say a word that i can see Daddy God is at work. And i know my 12 will be completed at that right time, i can feel it soon. I'm so excited for their souls, that i can lift them up and see little by little that were accepting Daddy God in their lives, slowly but surely. :)


***
Thanks Dad for this blessed day that i can really see you at work. I'm holding on to your promise -"I will give you many descendants and give you a great nation. I will bless you you and make your name famous so that you will be a blessing." (Gen.12:2) Isn't that sweet? To God be the glory. I love you Dad! :)

Your HEART is the real YOU. It determines why you say the things you do, why you feel the way you do, and why you act the way you do.

It's your heart. :)

And my heart today, it's great. I'm good. :)

Proverbs 27:19 says
"If you look on the water your face would be reflected, but who you really are can be seen in your heart."
(i'm not holding a bible with me, it goes like that.see it and be blessed)


GOD BLESS YOUR HEART, MINE TOO :)

THINKING OF YOU

i just entitled it as : "thinking of you" coz i can hear it right now playing. .haha. .

anyways, it's almost a week since i last updated my blog. .(our connection is disconnected until now. .) i'm here at ate rachel's house today. . :)

my day?it wouldn't end here but i started it with a prayer talking to Daddy God that everything would be fine.. I went to NSO today for orientation.. And i don't what gonna happen next.. haha.. Til nch time i'm there then after that i visited my friend near NSO, in Del Rosario. I had a bonding with my friend's little sister and before i can go home as usual i must put her li'l sister to sleep.. haha.. funny but i enjoy playing with her sister plus the heartwhelming welcome of her family.. i really miss that.. And now here i am at ate Rachel's house blogging.. haha.. i'll start.. GAME. ::)

SO HOW'S MY HEART THIS PAST FEW DAYS?

Not that fine but i'm working with it. I hate feeling this kind of feeling. It's like i'm back to zero and all i can do is nothing. I'm broken again. I don't know why i should feel this way. I really hate this part. I kept ignoring it but deep inside i'm longing more for it. And now it's raining outside.. Connection? Haha. Just wanna end up with this. Praying that i would long no more. Just relax in faith and trust Daddy God.

FIGHT! NEVER SAY NEVER. :)

Sad Thoughts

07-20-10
Somehow it reminds me of this person about the things that happened yesterday, thoughts that make me sad for a while. I had fun having this conversation via text message while i receive this message saying "i know, you don't have to say it always to me."

Whoa! That message made me remind of someone. Someone whom i used to be with before. But i really didn't expect to received that message from that other someone cause he's not that type. Anyways he admit that he didn't meant it and it was only a joke. Ok, move on with it. I just really don't know why i'm being so sensitive right now. It was this day that makes me remind of him, accidentally hearing his voice over the phone when i called one of my friend and whoa talking to my friend i heard his voice.I heard him talking with some of my friends too,his voice was all that i heard though i'm talking with my friend. I can hear him making kulitan with others. I don't know why, but anyways never looked back.


(I TALKING TO MYSELF)
Hey! Love hurts before but with Daddy God right by your side today and tomorrow oh common Carizza what more can you ask for? You're so blessed don't waste your thoughts with the past, leave it behind.That's good. Cheer up! Remember Daddy God would be in joy when He knows that you're fine and when He see you smiling back to Him -- knowing that the reason why you smile is because of Him, right? Ok now i'm doing great! Thank you my Dad. ILOVEYOU! :)

Dream to Reality

06-19-10
I dreamed about this guy, i don't know who's this guy actually.. haha.. but i dreamed of him. .
In my dream, this guy was one of a kind that he would certainly do anything just to please his girl.
I'd love to be that way and certainly every girl would like to be treated as a Princess, isn't? But hey i don't know why in that dream i wasn't that happy knowing that his there for me, and he'll do anything for me. I've been looking for this man who would do anything just to make sure i'm happy but then i wasn't that contented. And boom! I'm awake..

Haha.. Funny how i remembered that dream..

Just a thought, well maybe i'm not happy then with that guy because what he always do was just to please me and not do things for the Glory of God. Nowadays, i'm really looking forward for this guy who loves Daddy God more than he loves me. Now, i understand the real meaning of love. Seeking first Our King before anyone else, then eventually everything else will follow. And I can say i'm so blessed having this chance to make everything all right and continue my Manifesto -- A Journey that would make my life change for the best and glory of God. ♥ÜDaddyGodÜ♥

LOVE CONFLICT

oh it's love. i will tell you about this tradition and culture that serve as a conflict between two persons who love each other. i've watched Mano Po (i dunno what series) this morning in cinema 1, angel locsin and richard gutierrez.
The girl who look forward for his love and never believe in love at first sight until he met richard. At first they were both happy and enjoying each other company but when the time Angel told him that she's sure about her feelings for him, she decided to reveal about the real her. She's 100% Chinese, and with their traditions and culture they can never marry a Filipino man.
To sum it up there were these many trials and conflict that occur:
*family
*citizenship
*childhood friend
*misunderstood
*engagement
*and the likes.
Many things happened but at they end up falling in love more and more for each other at the end of the story, fighting for the so called LOVE. They fight for each other and whoa! See. (actually i'm not in the mood to blog right now. sorry readers. i can't express what i really wanna say. =/)

Well just to live you a thought if you love someone fight for him/her. Never set boundaries. How can you say you love him/her if you set limitations between the two of you? It's all about the LOVE that you're feeling for each other as long as you know that it's real. And God will give the desires of your heart. It's not about the tradition, culture, religion and the likes. But it's all about you making the best choice. It's all in your hands. :)

DECISION MAKING

The moment i wake up i'm deciding what to wear? what time should i get to school? would i stay at school to have bonding with the org. or go to church - youthgig?

I made a lot of decisions today. And never should i regret it. This day was a lot of fun. :)

No.1
Guess what i didn't had a b'fast at home because i'm in a hurry my anak-anakan were texting that they need me. So i'm in a hurry, i'm about to judge unde rthe Dancing Dept. in the organization. I had my b'fast in the jeepney, skyflakes and C2. haha

No. 2
Decision Making on the points that i would give to the students who had an entry for the auditions.
--I really had fun judging today. I met a lot of different people and I experience it. (Reminiscing the time when i'm about to audition.haha) It was great! Being a part of Theatre Guild is one of the best thing that ever happened during my college days and i'm thankful with the Organization coz i learned a lot of things - love, friends, discipline,respect. And this next batch, whoa! I'm praying that they would show their care for the Org. -- love&respect. I can see the talents and dedications of the next wanna be TG - very promising! I'm so excited for them. :)

No. 3
Would i stay in the school to judge or go to church?
I admit i really wanna stay on the audition for i really enjoyed judging but then i had to give up the fun i'm feeling. I decided to spend my morning at the Organization and afternoon to church. And that's the best decision and guess what i win one soul. If i failed to go to church that day i would never win that soul. Really everything has a purpose. :)

My day was so great! Daddy God helped me to make my decisions. I really enjoyed this day with His love. :)

at the end of the day. .

07-16-10
Laundry + Paperworks of my Father + Unemployment = total sickness.

Whoa! it's been days since i'm working with my Father's stuff. I'm helping him doing his reports, MS Excel - encoding. I get easily irritated when they wake me up then tell me to do that thingy, it's just that i wanna get a li'l rest from that - i hate staying at the front of computer with many hours coz i my head easily aches. But at point what i did to overcome that is to think that it's a training ground if i would work in NSO. I'm not done yet with those paperworks.. haha.. I'll finished them tomorrow. Maybe? :)

During the night we went to our Lola's house (mother side), and that's the only time i didn't go to my father side parents. I feel like my body would give up any time so i decided to stay and have some rest. What's touching about this? Is that my Lola (my mother's parent) is so caring. Guess what she's the one who fix the place where i would lay down. haha. She always make me feel like a baby whenever i'm in their house, i rarely visit them maybe it's because of that. I really miss her. :)

On our way home, arguing stuffs - where would i work? Duh! I'm sick of it. I know they really care for me and thinking my own goodness but. whoa! never mind. I run to my room instantly when we arrived at home to avoid arguments. I cried then. I cried tears to Daddy God, asking him a lot of things. And whoa! He's so magnificent. He's there, wiping my tears and saying i can do all of this - He will be there for me. Isn't he sweet. Knowing at the end of the day, Daddy God would always be there for you. I'm relieved. I love you! :)

BABES

07-15-10
Whoa! Guess what this was the first time i really had a bonding with this lady. Though we came from different friends but hey i tell you it seems like we're the closest friend in the group. This lady was so nice and kind-hearted, searching for this guy who would love her truly. Yes! Exactly for her Prince, she was hurt for how many times and i really pity her. I'm praying that one day she'll be happy and no one would ever get that happiness from her.

This bonding? whoa.. i can say there were lot of stuffs we talked about and what's new with girl's talk? haha.. It's all about love - heart aches and good memories that we had. Maybe women are created with that and you can never removed it. It's the way of relieving pain inside and it helps when you talked it with someone, isn't?

Well, I wanna thank her for helping me that day and wanna let her know that she's so special to me. She's one of a kind and surely you'll love her too if you'll just see what's inside of her. And this were some of the pictures taken i had with her. I had a lot of fun having this one great day with her, knowing that she can count on me. Thanks Daddy God for giving us this opportunity to bond. Anyways enjoy the pictures! :)

Wondering why BABE? haha.. it's the endearment of one our friend with his girlfriend who didn't had the chance to joined us this day. And that's it from then on we called each other Babe. Love you Babe. Enjoy the post and remember this, "Daddy God loves you. Relax in Faith and Trust Daddy God and in His own right time He'll give the Man that you've been waiting for." Ü

A TIME FOR OUR KING

it's LG time again. wee, every Wednesday i get excited to go to school not to study but to share Jesus. i don't care who would -- uncertainty. but it's my obligation, i want to obey His words. it doesn't matter if 1 or 2 people come on our LG, what matters most is that i know on my part i'm doing all things that can pleases Daddy God.

Praise God though the weather is not that fine still there were this 3 young people who were there seeking God. I really appreciate them, though i know others don't really have time with it. It's ok, it's their choice but still i'm praying for that right time that they would really find their way to Christ -- slowly but surely.

After my LG with my members, i go ahead to my LG leader house to have an LG. haha.. as usual i never failed to get the chance to listen and share the Word of God. Before the LG started we ate lunch at their home - first time and it's just only by now that we're making decision but as usual "bahala na syndrome" He asked me, "ANO GUSTO MO ULAM?" (kasi bumili lang siya ng lutong ulam and he waited for me para alam niya kung ano gusto ko kainin, andaming ulam. grabii andaming pagpipilian. haha) i told him "SIGE KAHIT ANO NALANG." and he replied, "KAYA NGA HININTAY KITA PARA IKAW PUMILI." and i just said, "BAHALA KA SIGE." then he do the decision, walking back at their house this kuwentuhan stuffs.

I never notice at first where on the Decision Making, we pray then eat. Then updating what happened with our lives this past few days, giving him the Christmas gift and as usual a letter (every 13th of the month when my Manifesto falls i'm giving him a letter). And then, Lg time. It's all about Decision Making. I told him too that i'm confuse on what job should i get. Lot of things we talked about and guess what where unto this topic that his referring to Daddy God but out of the blue we find ourselves laughing for the wrong statements he said "sa akin" though i really understood what he meant to say. LG went good and ended very good that once again we feel the presence of our Lord.

Ooops! I remember his younger sibling, Faith, whenever i go in their house she'll kiss me then ask for pasalubong. haha. I'm used to it so every now and then i know i'll go in their i'll bring one for her. She's sweet that lovely girl but her brother knowingly all her traits he'll just say to me, "pakitang tao lang yan." I'll just then laugh, having this bonding with his family sometimes make me miss his younger sibling. And when his about to take a bath i had this chit-chat with his sister and we go out to buy some foods. Going back after a while when he's done, we had this kulitan the 3 of us. It's me insisting them to kiss each other, haha.. But out of nowhere i don't know why his sister told that thingy, "bakit kayo di nagkikiss." Whoa! A kiddo, what a question. Speechless and we're just both laughing. Grabii. Then we leave their house, seeing they've kissed is heart whelming, that though for a while i can see them in that way. Isn't that sweet. :)

We went back to school then, i'll be waiting for a friend. But i decided to go with him first coz my friend was not around. I sit on other LG and that time i can see him that he was disappointed. I just whisper on my mind that somehow on my part i won't see him being disappointed with me and with my kapatids. It just flow. Whoa! Then had a walked on our way to terminal this kulitan moments with Kyzza and him plus he make jokes that my ex in the org. and him fell inlove with each other by means of simply staring on one another. haha. I really miss them. Hey! My Wednesday, full packed! GREAT:)

***FAITH***

5TH MONTH -FAITH

mind you, this week all i can think about is all about "faith"

one reason is that because it was my entry for the article but up to now i'm seeking out for the answers or what should i write.. where would be my starting point?

it was faith that i've been experiencing now. and i'm glad it would be my entry though i don't have ideas on what should i write on the article, i didn't even started to write.

but guess what, it's the word "faith" and by merely applying it into my life make me more closer to Daddy God. It's faith that make me feel that i'm loved by Him. Faith make me embrace His unfailing love for me. And whoa i'm on the fifth month of my Manifesto and i'm really into - embracing his Love for me. Ü

***FAITH, not feeling, pleases God***

CHRISTMAS ON JULY

i'll write it soon :)

FLUSH EM

i'll write it soon :)

Title: Candlelight
Text: Luke 8:16-18 Luke 11:33-36
Mechanics: Close all your lights. Light a candle. Read the text. Reflect.

Guess what i did this devo not using a candle but the light of my phone instead. I was upset then going to my room and i didn't plan any devotion that night. Tears start to fall, i wanna text someone but maybe it would just make no sense and i'll get more disappointed if i do it so. And guess what it's a li'l bit weirdo but when my tears begin falling down i get a hanky and blindfold myself. haha. it really helps, a lot. why? the span of crying was minimize it would just take a few minutes and after that whoa, i'm fine looks like nothing happened. ^_^

The light was synonymous to our eyes, if your eyes were in a mood that seems everything is perfect it would make your day more brighter but if tears start to fall it could be in darkness. Like the light if you would used it in a good way it would shine in it's beautiful way, nobody used the light just to hide it under your bed who would do that thingy? Just be sure that everything would be used in it's best purpose. Do what is right and the thing that would Glorify our King! :)

MY DAY TODAY?

dysmenorrhea attacks! i hate it & i hate hating thingy. haha :)

but this day? i was so blessed seeing our Parish Priest wayback in our Alma Matter, i kissed his hand and i'm overwhelmed that everything he see me he would always recognized me and my family, why so? because we won the Family Bible Quiz - Champion and we compete in other school and unexpectedly we got the second place knowing that our competitors were mostly Pastors. Whoa! Isn't that amazing, well guess what i'm looking forward to the next Bible Quiz, i don't know when will it be. Haha.

And i'm blessed on this couple, old people. Seeing that they're too old, having no companions at all during the mass but only themselves. The old man pushing his wife that was sited in a wheel chair, isn't that sweet. I remember the song kahit maputi na ang buhok ko. And i received a message too from Prince Max, overwhelming. :)

Movie Marathon _ toy story series and one thing that made an highlight,
"YOU'VE GOT A FRIEND IN ME - FOR INFINITY & BEYOND" -Woody&Buzz
Like Daddy God, He will always be there only for us. :)

Thank you too this human being, who share stories with me, knowing that i'm not that type that would just listen and do no talks at all - overwhelmed.
And lastly to Daddy God who never fails to make me feel that i am loved. Ü

I AM SORRY

Title: I am Sorry
Text: Matthew 18:15-35
Mechanics: Option 1- Write an open letter asking for forgiveness to people who you have hurt. Option 2- Write a private letter to persons you have hurt. Send it to them. Make peace with them.

I'm choosing option 1, i don't know if i will have the courage to tell it to her. I know i can, i'll just wait for the right moment. So here it is.

Arvi,

I know it took so long for me to take this courage to say sorry for what had happened. We can't go back in time but i wanna let you know that i really felt sorry. I'm only human and at times i do fail, i know i used my heart that time but i used my mind to. Heart, yeah i admit i fall in love but not to the point that i want him in my life, who am i to tell i didn't maybe before i told you so but now i want to have a clear conscience. I used my mind in a sense that i don't want you to be hurt but i know i've hurt you. Sorry for all the hard times i bring. I admit i tried many times to avoid all those stuffs before but maybe things must go that way, i had my fault. But it was not my intention to see you both separated because i know how he love you so. There was that time when you broke up with him, he's telling me that and i wanted to helped fix up those things but he said he'll settle all things by himself. I let him and things worked out fine. And i'm glad everything was fine and back at the right place. And i wanna let you know that i appreciate the sincerity of your heart - the conversations we had together. Thanks. I'm doing this to be at peace with you and for you too see the sincerity within me on how i really felt sorry before, because we did not end up as good as we wanted at the first place. Hope you can forgive me.

Anyways you're a mom now, Congratulations! Take care of yourself and your family. God bless you! :)


-Carizza

MY DAY TODAY?

I had a hard time thinking if i would give it up. So i decided not to think about it, haha.. I watched some of the videos of Rick Warren and i got inspired on what he said, "GOD smiles when you be YOU." And the topic about Moses, it's only by now that i knew that the staff of Moses symbolizes 3 things: identity, income, influence. And we so we are, everything depends in our hand. So what's in your hand? :) And it really doesn't depends on how often you go to church, what matters most is that you're using your ability to make God smiles at you just being the real YOU. So how could you make me doubt now when I know God knows how much I love to disciple my Life Group though i don't go often to church. Whoa! Nothing can stop me now. God is with me.

Oh oops! Guess what I'm struggling right now, how i'd wish i didn't wake up around 8:30pm so i didn't struggle.. haha.. Can somebody tell me that Royal is not a softdrinks but an orange drink.. haha.. wake me up! haha.. Thank God i'm eating snickers right now it lessened my struggle.. haha.. :)) Love you Daddy God. I love you. I love you. :)

BLIND

Title: Blind!
Text: Matthew 9
Mechanics: Read the text. Blindfold yourself for thirty (30) minutes while reflecting on the read verse.

Whoa this devotion in action it was so great, as in i had a great time reflecting and find myself reminiscing about what happened in the past. I talked to Daddy God, and at first i'm just singing songs of praise in my mind ("here I am Lord.." & "i offer my Life to you Lord..") that lyrics of that certain songs just keep playing in my mind. And the remaining minutes it's like a flashback, the persons whom i loved so dearly - family, friends, relatives, etc. It was so dark, i can barely see nothing but i focus and wanna talk to Our King, what did i see? His sufferings, how he died for us. Tears starts to fall, and i felt so sorry for i have sinned. Feeling sorry for all the wrongs i've done and thanking all the people who were always there for me. I miss and how i'd liked to say to those all persons whom i'd seen during this devotion that I love them so and i'm so blessed having them in my life. Thank you too Daddy God for making me remind all the good and bad things that happened in the past, i never regret all the sadness and joy. I surpassed it all and now here i am - i change a lot and i'm ready to serve you. All glory and honor are yours!:)

So when you cry it's a good thing to blindfold yourself, it sounds funny but that's the only way to remind you that though you're all alone crying still in that dark experience when tears start to fall, no need to wipe your tears and if you focus you can see Daddy God, just talked to Him and eventually your tears would stop falling because you'll realize you're not really all alone by yourself, if you just open up your heart you'll see God can feel your pain too and He'll be there for you. :)

MY DAY TODAY?

I was having a hard time to make a decision if i should give up NSO, a job. What did I asked before, isn't it for a job? So now here's a job knocking on the the door, i'll just have to pass all the requirements next week but still i quit. Maybe you think i'm insane, now i can be employed but i didn't get the opportunity. But i tell yo, i'm not. It was a tough decision, i asked some of my friends and family and at the end of the day i end up with the decision of giving it up. I know in my heart that it isn't the job that i wanted and i believe Daddy God would give me the best opportunity if i would follow Him. I'm not disappointed with my decision, i feel joy knowing that i take the risk and i can have more time to serve our King.

BDO - "We find ways." but GOD will make a way.. Alright! Looking forward for my ever first job! :)

SMALL BUT TERRIBLE

small BUT TERRIBLE

Text: Matthew 13:31-35

Mechanics:Aquire or pick one small object that made you smile for the day. It could be anything, a piece of rock, a pen, a picture, etc. Reflect. Pray.

Searching. Finding that small piece that made me smile. Perhaps my sticky note that comes in different color. Oh yes! Whenever I do my Bible reading i always have those stuff with me it has 8 colors (whatta wonderful world,haha). I used that sticky notes for the words that made impact whenever i talked to Daddy God, you can see my bible full of sticky notes.. haha.. But wait, i bet that sticky notes wasn't the one that really made me smile.

My phone, yep that's it! Though it's not that brand new still it made me smile. Nowadays I can't live without it (expecting calls from different companies and looking forward to be hired) that's why i can't live my phone. It was late last night while i was reading the book "Who Puts Jesus on The Cross," whenever i read that book my phone was besides me, searching for the meanings of unusual words that were not so familiar with me, my phone has a dictionary so i find it more easy whenever i find it hard for me to understand unusual words. It helps, a lot. And my phone makes the easiest way to say hi & hello to my friends whom i don't see for a while. means of Communication. Whenever i'm boring i usually plays with it -games, taking photos, video, listening to music. It was early this morning around six in the morning and as usual the moment i wake up, i pray, then look for my phone. (haha,but i won't looked to my phone if i'm unable to pray) But suddenly i fell asleep, the second time i'm awake i was a li'l bit paranoid looking for my phone, did i misplaced it? Na-a! I hide it, haha.. But it makes me sad for a while not seeing my phone besides me. It was then i remembered that i hide it beside the book that i was reading. I usually hide my phone every time i talked to Daddy God to avoid destruction. And when i see my phone i was relieved (haha, it sounds funny but i just can't live without it.) That way i can say my phone really makes me smile. Though it was a small electronic gadget still it has a lot of terrible things that can do for me. ^_^

MY DAY TODAY?

It was oh. Out of the blue, i just miss going in Makati. I don't know why, but maybe and not maybe, erased maybe (recycle bin,haha) I believe that my job is near. It was knocking out the door, waiting for the right time. Whoa! Positive. BDO.. Ü

I AM -- COOKING / BEING A LEADER

07-07-10

I AM COOKING

It was early in the morning when my mother told me to cook something for lunch. Whoa! Cook? haha.. I admit i'm not that good at cooking and oops it's almost time i had to go to school not to study but to have my Life Group, i was lazy then to get up my bed. (i'll elaborate it more on the second story.haha) So then, i get up and started to cook for my younger brothers because i can't be home during lunch time. It was past nine then when i finished, my Life Group leader was texting me if i'm awake, and what's on my mind then i'll be late. (etc.etc.etc.) After my day in Angeles, i went home and at home the first thing i do was to see if they eaten what i cooked, and whoa! The plate was empty.. haha.. But then again, during dinner my father and mother where not around and texted me to cook for our dinner, they wanted me to fry milk fish, (duh? i don't know how to cook that one..haha..so i didn't cook that instead i just fry maling), we ate together and guess what they eaten what i had cooked. haha.. Most of the time i get irritated with my brother but the fact that they appreciate what i cooked for them made me more feel that i'm their sister and that i should appreciate them more too.. And that teach me a lesson -- appreciation and to get rid of being quarrelsome with them.. =]

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BEING A LEADER

Yes a leader! This day was the second time that i would meet my LG members but this time i wouldn't be the one to share the Word, i ask my LG leader to do it. And i'm praying that all of them would attend and received/accept Daddy God in their life. Luckily out of 8, 4 had arrived and out of that 4 my LG leader thought that there was only one of them who was so attentive. I can say being their leader was a li'l bit painful because you really have to take the risk for them to see how much Daddy God loves them and the eagerness in me to show how i wanted them to have a deeper relationship with Daddy God.
One of my member told me that why others don't appreciate the time that i spend with them, going to school just to share Jesus. Yeah right, a piece of me get hurt knowing that i'm doing all of this not because for me but for them to meet Jesus, to have Him in their own lives. To know the purpose of their life, if they were going on the right path or not. I know that being a leader was a tough decision, not just being a mere believer but being a discipler. A part of me jumps for joy every now and then i share Jesus to others, and i do thank my LG leader for encouraging me so.

And guess what Daddy God revealed to me that i must not worry if i don't have a work right now, i know He will give it to me after all of this sacrifices. It was worth the wait, i know He won't let me down. And God has a wonderful plan for my life. (one of the four laws,haha.) It's true! God has a plan for everyone of us, we just have to entrust everything unto him. Believe - have faith! :) And the most important thing i learned from being a leader is that i shouldn't doubt even for a second and not to be scared of what lies ahead, GOD IS WITH ME,Us - EMMANUEL. (btw it's the name of our Life Group- Emmanuel) . ^_^

BREAD TALK

07-06-10

Title: Bread Talk
Text: John 6:25-29
Mechanics: Buy a bread or a cracker. Eat it while reading the text. Reflect. Pray

"Devotion or Quiet Time with Daddy God" but this time it has a twist or what Prince Max has called devotion in action. It was shared by Prince Max, i received a text message from him inviting me to do so. And i did it, step by step and i found it more attractive - it really makes sense. While doing it there were a lot of visualization and realization that were happening that make me so eager to have a talk with Daddy God and understand more the essence of what is written on the Bible. Hey you reader, if you wanna do it to i'm inviting you - try it! :)

It was around four o'clock in the afternoon when i've done this devotion. Yes four o'clock, i was awakened then from my nap and was so irritated because that's the only time i had a rest that day - as usual household chores made my day so tiring. My father wake me up asking me to get the clothes that i'd wash 'coz it's like heavy rain would fall. I was so irritated that time thinking that he could done it for me and not to wake me up, but then i talked to myself and pray to be calm.

After doing that, immediately i run to my room and i remembered the devotion and do it. I get a cookies and while reading it i'm eating. But suddenly it stops me to eat when i'm on the part of the verse that says that "you came here not because of my miracles but because of the food." (not exactly that words but same thoughts i'm not holding a bible at this moment). It stops me, but i continue to read the Good News and at the last verse it states there that "you must believe to the one that God has sent." Knowingly that it was Jesus - The Way, The Truth, The Life.

AS BEAUTIFUL AS YOU

Compliment to this guy who dedicated this song to me, it sounds funny but when he said this song about me i never listen to it and now whoa i'm currently listening to this song.. LSS.. :)

Just maybe if it's God's will i can hear you sing this song in front of me.. SOMEDAY :)

Thank you.. I appreciate everything about you. Ü

AS BEAUTIFUL AS YOU

From the Moment I saw You...

From the Moment I looked into Your Eyes...

There was Something about You...I knew...I knew

You were once in a lifetime, a treasure near impossible to find,

And I know how lucky I am to have you

(CHORUS)

I've seen rainbows that can take your breath away

the Beauty of the setting sun on any given day

When it comes to shooting stars, i've seen a few,

But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you...

Ohh..ooo

I can't believe that I have you

I can't believe that you're here in my arms

I've been waiting a lifetime for you...for you.

And I've dreamed about you

Pictured in my mind who I would see

But I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be...

(CHORUS)

I've seen rainbows that can take your breath away

the Beauty of the setting sun on any given day

When it comes to shooting stars, i have seen a few,

But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you...

lalalalalalalala....

ooohh....

(CHORUS)

I've seen rainbows that can take your breath away

the Beauty of the setting sun on any given day

When it comes to shooting stars, i've seen a few,

But I've never seen anything...

No I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

oohh

From the moment i saw you,

From the moment i looked into your eyes

***WAIT PATIENTLY***

REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY

"be a romantic lover.
care more often.
think of him.
listen to my heart."

those were some of the stuffs that i must do.. REVERSE it. =)

my manifesto celebration falls every 13th of the month.
and now i wanna guard myself.
FOCUS ON IT.

in short: "gusto ko munang maging manhid sa pag-ibig."

not the mere fact that i'm saying all of these, i really wanted to put into action.
and promised that this one guy will be my first&last struggle ever. (PRAYING.)

and at the end of the day i can say, i'm committed to God.
and fulfilled my promise.
it's once in a lifetime. so why not bring all the Glory to Him, love Him more. Grow in love with Our King.
And when it ends, i can proudly say --

"I DID IT, AND I KNOW HE(DADDY GOD) IS PROUD OF ME."

wow isn't that sweet, betcha! haha.. :)
from now on i'll give everything to Him -- surrender ALL..

IT STARTS ^_^

***FOR CHRIST'S SAKE***

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

07-03-10
at this moment, i'm starting to live my life the way i wanted it to be, what more when God gives me the right moment so i can Glorify Him more without no one is controlling me or stopping me from doing such a thing. .and i know with God -- NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.. :))

@GIG - i was moved again. whoa! whatta a feeling to be in His home.. plus i had a mentoring with my LG leader, truly i was blessed. .and every now and then i won't stop saying thank you to Him, for him to know that i really appreciates him. To God be the Glory! :)

@SM CLARK - PANCAKE HOUSE - the first time i had an alliance with Prince Darby & Princess Rachel. whoa! haha.. we first talked about our inspiration and looking their pictures.. haha.. anyways the real agenda is to plan for this project. it makes my day more great because of this project that we're planning and the main objective? TO GLORIFY OUR GOD. wee, won't you be excited making this project when you know that your main objective was to glorify our King. I'm just so excited, and looking forward on what's gonna happened next.. who will be our companion in this project? haha.. wanna meet them soon, no clues..

--Princess Rachel - thank you though you're the reason why our meeting ended early.. haha.. hope you enjoyed the time with your friends, iloveyou! :)

--Prince Darby - i don't know why you're smiling after i pray.. haha.. thanks for that smile, i appreciate it and the conversation i had with you.. Glory to God! :)

@JEEP - on our way home, i had this chit-chat with Prince Darby and there was this li'l accident that happened he was about to picture it but he was so slow,haha.. slow to get his cam.. anyways we talked about this love issue his Princess and my Prince (where is he?) haha.. but then were both being amazed that everything happens for a reason and i hope someday will get to know my PRINCE & his PRINCESS at the right moment - God's will

***MINUTES OF MEETING***

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too tired at home but it makes me more.more..haha..SPEECHLESS ^_^

07-02-10
guess what i started this day doing some encoding for my father's work thingy and typing songs of Praise that he'll used by this day, it's 1 a.m. in the morning and i'm still doing this stuff.. around 2a.m. i finished it and as usual before sleeping i send goodnight messages and out of the blue someone replied, we texted each other i think more or less around 330 in the morning and i fell asleep about 2hours and i replied to his last message and i was amazed he's still awake (what's new?) haha.. then we exchange message until 7 in the morning, but i was annoyed then not because of him but because of these "utos dito & utos doon" i don't know if i should listen to my mom or dad.. i've got lot of stuffs to do, these household chores.. not to mention them all but it makes my day too tiring and be irritated with the people around me.. =/


but guess what at the end of the day because of this book that i was reading it makes me feel more energetic and not to feel this annoying thingy, the book was entitled "WHO PUTS JESUS ON THE CROSS," i learned a lot from this book, that even though in this small matter i should not be complaining. .i really appreciates this book, it makes me understands more about Jesus and to continue growing in Love with our King. .Praise God! :)

***at this moment, i'm being so speechless..that all i wanna do is to Glorify our King, honestly i'm not this kind of person but still i am being amazed that God moves my life and i can say i'm really happy, surrendering everything makes it worth it, more worth it to live life to the fullest***

CARIZZA CORDERO RAMIREZ

07-01-10
wonder why my blog post is my full name? it's simply because starting today i wanna be called with my real name..

"CANG" no more.. why?
because it only reminds me of "CANG" who was so iyakin..
and i'm not that anymore.. i changed.. A LOT ^_^
wee. Glory to God..
i appreciate every person who starts calling me by my real name..
20 years of existence here on earth and i wanna be called on my name starting today..
i wanna hear people saying my name and knowing me by my name..

***THE BEGINNING IS ALWAYS TODAY***