HOLD ON?

you're around but i'm not with you.
i'm not with you and either you.
either you makes so many difference.
many difference that starts the distance.
distance that build wall.
wall that would fall apart.

bestfriend between a lover.
a lover will make you feel so special.
so special that you tend to forgot what we've promised.
promises that are broken.
broken relationship that hurts.

***waaaahh!! i hate this. why should i ought to feel this way.
it's wrong.wrong.wrong. should i let go? or still hold on to our promises though jealousy attacks? i can be your best friend but i dunno until when will i overcome this fear i feel inside. praying that everything will be fine. neither i don't wanna go so far away from you, it really needs time. time to make everything better again, be on the same track. meeting yours and mine halfway. sorry Dad but i just wanna be real. can't tell this thingy straight forward to that person coz i'm afraid to be ignore but with you i know you would listened. and this blog would just let me write what would i feel at this moment. so blessed i had this blogsite that i can write every thoughts in my heart and mind. i really miss us but there are many excuses now. praying things will be all right at the right moment. i will endure and pray for it. =(

***WHEN I'M AFRAID, I TRUST IN YOU. BLESS MY HEART DAD. MAKE EVERYTHING BE IN PROPER PLACES. DON'T WANNA GET WRONG. JUST WANNA ENDURE. ENDURE. ENDURE. WAIT PATIENTLY FOR THE RIGHT TIME. YES DAD INDEED YOU'RE THE STRENGTH OF MY HEART. THOUGH I FEEL THIS WAY HOLDING UNTO YOU MAKES ME FEEL SO GREAT AT THE TIMES WHEN I FEEL SO WEAK. GUIDE ME, GUARD MY HEART. BLESS MY HEART. SO GREAT I HAVE YOU(DG) IN MY LIFE THAT PUTS ME UP WHEN I'M DOWN. :)