DAY25 OF 40 DAYS

Hearing love songs and dedications for their love ones melts my heart. It reminds me of this person who was so dear to me, i love dedicating songs for him which means a lot. (I Choose You & We Are One) But all i can do is to endure. endure. endure.

***LOVE WAITS PATIENTLY***

DAY24 OF 40DAYS

Guess what? A Pastor prayed for us (me & aizen). 'twas after my work when i go ahead in the church for prayer works (Dawn Watch). Out of the blue words come out in my mouth after DW when Pastor Jerry passed us by, he's staring with us then all of a sudden i whisper to him "PWEDE NIYO PO KAMING PAGPRAY." No second thought, he prayed for us immediately or what they so called EGR. It was when he starts praying for me tears fall down, Daddy God broke my heart again. I screamed out loud just to ease the pain, struggles in life. After that, whoa! Amazing, oh yes! I feel great. Amazing Grace! :)

Dad told me then that i must not worry about anything or anyone else, once again i go back to the basic -- the beginnng. Phil.4:6 and the new revelation Exodus14:14. And that reminds me of my faith in Him and to trust Him with His promise for me. :)

Thank you Daddy God for that encounter, encounter with you Dad. I love you. Bless my heart. :)

DAY23 OF 40DAYS

Hi bloggers! :)

Oh i got a phone call from a call center agent today, and i was shocked. I just said to that agent "YES" for how many times, why? because i can't understand what he's saying, i was just awakened then from my sleep.. Haha.. :))

Had an LG too and the presence of Daddy God was so great, that we can see Him moving in our network. Many descendants.. Yes! Genesis 12:2. And guess what the word of my fellow Christians plus what i had share is a perfect combo! It was so amazing! I had a great time with them, we prayed for each other and for our own country too. :)

But on the other hand a part of me wasn't that good, i don't why i just can't stare at him and had talks, i wasn't supposed to act that way. I feel sad, i can feel he wanted to talk to me but me i just kept quiet until i left them. =/

And this was the second time i had a walked on the street to our work, it was scary but i know Daddy God guides me. I do trust Him that no one can harm me. :)

What more? Hmm.. Many more but i wanna end it up here.. Sorry for my blog entry, i just can't think right now -- too tired and i wanna sleep.. Until next time.. I'll leave this entry with a simple prayer.

"Daddy God, bless every people who always find time to read my blog just to update what's happening on my life. I thank you for their lives and i wanna let them know that i do appreciate them. Let your love shine upon us. Bless our hearts Dad and guide us always. I love you Dad! In Jesus name I pray, Amen. :)"

DAY 22 OF 40DAYS

Hmm.. My day? I started it having this LG with my anaks.. Whoa! Whoa! I'm speechless.. haha.. I can see Dad moving.. Ihh.. haha.. speechless.. This was the fourth time i had an LG and after our LG someone cried.. haha.. GRACE.GRACE.GRACE! :)

I had dinner with Dj too, he treat me again.. Haha.. While on my way to work, it was my first time i walked at NSO all alone. I wasn't that afraid.. :)

I had this first, oh my first....... And I'm glad for the first time.. haha..

***REMEMBER, It's all about LOVE - LOVE GOD AND LOVE PEOPLE.***

DAY21 OF 40DAYS

Hi bloggers! I'm blogging on my night and day time due on my work schedule 8pm-5am.

My sleeping hours is 8am-4pm then wake up to eat, take a bath and off to work. Sometimes i go early when i have to meet some of my friends or most of the time LifeGroup. :)

Off to work this day i'm with Dj, i meet him at Mcdo and oh my guess what i saw not him but him(you know,haha), it's God's will.. haha :) I was amazed and shocked.

Anyways, Dj and I always have this laugh trip and most of the time talking about his crushessss-many-many..haha! :) He's a sweet guy, he went with me at NSO but we stopped at Ministop, he bought some breads and energy drink (touching) and told me to eat some of it during our breaktime, he wanted to buy me cup noodles but i refuse. Most of my workmates saw us together and they thought he was my bf. We do lots of talk and joking each other, what if we don't go to church maybe we were drunkard, we smoke and the likes.. Haha.. I do enjoy his company, he makes me more talkative.. haha..

At work?

Sleepiness.. I didn't meet our quota, laughtrip with the guys at work. And they made fun of me always.. (sanay na ako..haha) I'm accepting them little by little. ^_^

***I THANK DADDY GOD FOR THE PEOPLE WHO APPRECIATES ME***

DAY20 of 40DAYS

whoa! finally i had this time again to blog..just got home from work, finished eating my breakfast and now drinking my milk before i go to sleep..

updates?

WORK?

-different people but i'm enjoying and accepting reality.. reality bites, right? :) 'm easily learning the ropes of a workplace.. just wanna enjoy it and don't wanna look up for the negative sides ^_^

HOME?

-it's just like i'm going at home to eat,sleep,take a bath, that routines only then off to work again.. i bet my family miss me a lot.. haha :))

FRIENDS?

-i find it hard somehow to meet them,but eventually i'm coping up with it. :)

MY HEART?

-whoa! a tough decisions to admit to this guy that i'm loving him more and more for no reasons at all.. i'm just being honest with my feelings for him.. no secrets.. :)

DADDY GOD?

-i had a lot of time with Him and most of the time His my companion, we do chit-chat mode always.. i'm enjoying His love.. i'm blessed.. :)

what more?hmm.. i bet.. i'll start blogging again,sorry guys if i stopped blogging i was into an adjustment period at my work but i do promise that i'll be blogging again though i'm tired after work.. love yah bloggers! :)

***SPEAK TRUTH IN LOVE***

DAY9 OF 40DAYS

just got home from work. and whoa, a tiring day. haha.


"hindi ako mkpgkuento kasi wala akong maisip, haha.. napagod na ako. for a change tagalog ang post na ito.. :)"

yun.. araw ko? masaya nman at work.. so blessed kay jelly pinagluluto nya ako lagi ng lunch.. haha.. nabubusog ako sa luto niya.. at work? yun we always sing and smile pag pagod na and inaantok,haha.. pag ako nagkanta na that means pagod na ako,haha.. i sing songs of praise at work.. nawawala pagod ku.. :) and dahil sa dulo ang place ko pag dumadaan ako lagi kong sinasabi na dadaan ang sexy,haha.. grabii, wala lang for a change and mawala antok ng mga kasama ko, plus super ginaw pa dun..haha..:) and guess what 13 pala ngayon muntik kuna makalimutan.. half a year na Manifesto ko, wee.. bless me Dad and secure my heart.. lalabs you madame Dad.. thank you for this day.."

--ayun tamad tlga ako mgblog kasi pagod ako.. haha.. wala akong maisip.. grabii.. ^_^

♥TRUSTING GOD COMPLETELY MEANS HAVING FAITH THAT HE KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR YOUR LIFE♥
Almost halfway of the year and patiently waiting for THE PROMISE.Ü
Bless my heart Dad and the heart of your Promise.
LOVE YOU DADDY. ♥♥♥

DAY8 OF 40DAYS

***Colossians3:23***

-to be posted soon. chat2 with kapatids di aq mkpgsulat :)

DAY7 OF 40DAYS

Worship pleases Daddy God. In everything you do, you can worship Dad by means of your love, thanksgiving, and delight, not duty. Do it on your own willingness that you can glorify Him. :)

TODAY?
My first day at work. My mother prepared a packed lunch for me and give me a tumbler. (touching,like the old days -- elementary days) First day at work and i'm late. haha. It's like first day of class, we introduce ourselves to our co-encoders. And guess what, on Aug.19,2010 it's the anniversary of NSO and our supervisor oblige our team to prepare a Prod. that will be held at King's Royal. I had friend at work, Jelly - a single parent mom. She's like my older sister and she's gonna cooked for our tomorrow lunch. yipee! Plus she'll bring chocolate cookies and snacks, as if she's my mom. So blessed i've met her. And our Project Team Leader, he's my crush. Haha. We're close, as if we've been friends for a long time, but he's a type of person who loved to mingle with girls that's why i'm not surprised with his sweetness. (i'm not affected anyways,haha) And my neighbor at work is a guy, i don't know his name though we had talks. haha. I bet i will surely enjoy this work, the atmosphere and people there were good. And next week we'll have our work started from 8p.m.-5a.m., i'm excited. Haha. :)))

I know that Dad planned all of this before i get in this company, i would surely love to worship him by doing my work for his glory. Thanks Dad, guide me with my everyday living. I love you! Ü

DAY6 OF 40DAYS

Nothing to talked about what i've read on PDL.. :)

TODAY?
**read PDL
**laundry
**a talked with one my closest friend in town
**a talked with my parents
**listened to frappe band - i fell in love with their voices
**talked with Dad

(heartburn,my body aches)

i had a talked with this friend of mine and we had this laugh trips that we used to be. reminiscing the past and talking some stuffs. hi & hello. how's life. something like that. but i pity her, she felt too much pain with her family, thinking that she was being ignored. then i realized how blessed i am having this family of mine. i had this chit-chat with my parents about work and i told them about my friend, we don't usually do that (haha) but then i'm glad with their decisions that they will look for a maid. finally laundry no more. yipee! looking forward for that. :)

and this band. frappe. made me think of my 2nd ex-bf. his a singer and a dancer. he had his band and they usually jam. i just miss the times we had before, he sing songs for me as always together with the band. he's so gentle, only for a month we had this relationship but then his worth remembering. a God fearing man but maybe we're not supposed to be together. i met his family when we had a break up, funny but it's true. no connections at all after we break up, just seeing him unexpectedly. haha. i saw him this month and we're both speechless. just merely staring at each other and smile. :)

***blessed,reminiscing***

DAY5 OF 40DAYS

LIFE IS A TEST AND TRUST.

Yep! That's right. Everything is a test, to test our trust with Daddy God. I honestly cried today - tears started to fall while waiting for my Life Group member. By faith I know someone will be there and Praise God one of my LG member arrived. I told her that it really hurts, that i wanna quit but then i just can't give them up. I do love them so much, though i can feel this pain in my heart still love conquers all. Maybe I'm just so good, too good to be true that if i get mad or hurt by someone after a while then as if nothing happened.

While sharing Jesus Christ to her made me cry, that's the first time I cried in front of her. I just can't take it anymore. Talking about taking the risk in everything that we do that we know in the end will receive a reward from our King. Though for a while, I can feel that still i'm loved.

Thanking Leo for her time she spent with me, Blest for making me feel that i'm not alone, and him for making me smile though via text only still i can feel that he cares.

And on my way home i see this friend of mine, my best friend way back in High School. Some people think that he's my boyfriend whenever where together but for me he's one of the sweetest friend i ever had. He's a touchy person indeed, he always hug and kiss me whenever we see each other and i miss walking with him,we always held hands. But not to the extent that i love him and he love me more than a friend only best friends, no more no less. I really miss our bonded moments, looking forward for a time with him. :)

***AND SOMEHOW I FIND IT HARD EMBRACING YOU. IT HURTS BUT REMEMBERING YOUR SACRIFICE YOU'VE DONE FOR US MAKE ME SAY THAT THIS, ALL OF THIS THAT I'M DOING IS FOR YOUR GLORY. I'M WILLING TO TAKE THE RISK.***
(I write those words at 11:33am in Johnny's Supermarket while crying.. haha)

DAY4 OF 40DAYS

MADE TO LAST FOREVER

Right! That book is a help, a lot. It made me think of what i'm living for, how to make it last forever. I may not know all the things but what I'm certain of is that Daddy God loves me so much and i'm surrounded by the beautiful things He created. :)

hey you, you can make things last forever by pleasing our King! To God be the glory! :)

TODAY? (08-08-10)

Remind me of "TAGS" of the things i've done:
*tagahiwa
*tagaabot
*tagatikim
*tagapicture
*tagavideo
*tagabantay ng babiessss.. ^_^

It's my cousin's first birthday today and we enjoyed it. I had a time with my family, with my Father's side family. It was a lot of fun. Whoa! I'm speechless.. Haha.. Too much happiness for this day.. Bonding with Ramirez Family. :)

DAY3 OF 40DAYS

WHAT DRIVES YOUR LIFE?

Living on purpose is the path to peace. And knowing your purpose here on earth will make a big impact in your life. If you want your life to have impact, focus on it! Focus on the things that would bring glory to our King! :)

***

I miss Dad. Worshiping in His house today made me feel more nearer to Him. Surrendering. No words can explained the joy i'm feeling right now. And it's all because of you Dad! And whoa Romans 8:31 says that "If God is with us, who can be against us?" Yeah! :)

On our way home guess what, Manong Driver was drunk, we're riding in the front seat beside him and whoa he drives fast that make me screamed not that loud but we're so closed to death, plus the lights of the jeepney were on and off. It scares me. I pray.pray.pray to be safe on our trip. Whoa! Praise God. And it's all because of Jesus I'm alive.

And because of the rain, allergies appeared. Dirty water causes my foot to be irritated. My skin is so sensitive and i hate it. And right now, i'm not that so inspired to write this blog. I just can't think of the next words to say. Haha. (bawi ako next blog.enjoy reading pa din readers.haha)

Dad, thank you for this day. And from now on i will be focus on the things that will bring glory to you. I love you Dad. :)

***PURPOSE-Glorify Our God(DAD)***

DAY 2 OF 40DAYS

HEARTBEAT.

twas a laundry day for me today, i woke up 8 in the morning -- i'm using washing machine and on the first set of clothes while it was running i read PDL and topic for today "YOU ARE NOT AN ACCIDENT."

What comes up to my mind one my recent problems due to religion.
Religion. Family. Religion. Family. DAD.
I won't worry. I'll live it up to you Dad. :)

Next stuff, my heartbeat. My heart. I don't know what's happening to me. If i have a heart disease or what (maybe i don't have, all i can think 'twas normal to feel that way but it hurts most of the time.) Bear with me, i don't know how to explain what's this - it's like someone's holding your heart so tight that the veins cause them it to move and it hurts. I don't know why, it happened to me before many times but then i ignore it. Maybe because i'm stress or perhaps i lack my sleep that's why it occurs. But i hate it cause everytime it occurs, i wanna cry but all i can do is to hold on my chest so tight or hold on to things tighter just not to feel the pain.

And that's it. I feel it again today but not that too much pain a lighter one.

And an hour ago -- i'm weak due to this crazy little thing. Can't stop thinking again. But what made me smile is that i had this little talk with Kevin's mom accidentally. I thought IE (our endearment) is the one online, i send him a PM but her mom's replied. I was blessed on the last message of her mom to me - "Goodnight, Godbless you." Simple yet it means a lot. Somehow i miss the company of other closest guy Mom to me. I admit i don't wanna be close with anyone's mom especially when it comes to a guy, cause of my 1st ex-b.f. mom. She's so sweet and caring to me and treats me like her own child. (Stop reminiscing.haha) I will look forward to my man in the near future having a cool family that would treat me as their own child too. :)

And what more? I'll pray. :)

"Dad, thank you for this wonderful day, though i'm feeling different heart failures in different ways nowadays still your unfailing love conquers it all. I may be weak at times but feeling your love, your special love for me make me stronger - giving me this brave heart. Thank you Dad, i thank you for these persons who shared their life with me. Blessed me Dad, i want you to transform me Dad into someone's better than before, make me feel loved so that in my next Journey with my man that you have promise to me in the near future i can make him feel love by means of the love you make me feel. (Kagulo ne Dad. haha. ot love kasi eh.Pero balu ku Dad antindyan muku sobra.Ü) Love you Daddy, hhhhuuuuugggggsssss!! :)"

***Phil 4:6***

DAY 1 OF 40DAYS

It melts my Heart ♥

I admit this past few days until now i'm having a hard time dealing in all aspects. I feel like giving up. I don't know what's happening to me but then at the end of the day i always and sincerely praying to God that everything would be settle. I admit to that i really wanna give up but then i just can't do it - i wanted to breathe with you again Dad and please do hold of me so tight. I want you more and more with my life-- bless me, guide me, give me strength, give me a brave heart.

A few minutes ago i just see myself smiling - smiling because of PDL book. It made me smile for a reason. It answered one of my problem. Should i pray for ---? YES. I kept repeating on my mind that i shouldn't worry but then what i've been doing always is to worry about that thingy. And now, my worries were lessened. Thank you Dad for that answered prayer. One problem down. Yes! :)

Just what the thoughts keep repeating on my mind this morning:
"For you O God tested us in fire, refine us like silver to a place called Abundance."
That verse kept repeating on my mind the moment i wake up. And everything that happens for me right now i know all of these are just a test. I must hold on and be brave. Take courage my child, Dad always say that to me.

And thank you Dad also for repeating My Manifesto Word - Romans12:2.
I know you would transform me into a new person. Slowly but surely Dad. I will hold on to your promises. :)

Thank you Dad, I know it's not about me. It's all about you. I love you Daddy God! :)

***PDL-Chapter1 -- It starts with God."***

--40days-- Aug.5,2010-Sept.14,2010